the joy.

welcome.

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welcome to my little enclosed world.

Pls do not take anything i say here to heart
i am jus ranting. ^^

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memories and rants

Monday, June 30, 2008; 10:29 PM

mine mine~

i was realli emo jus now..

totally lost in fact..

donno whr i headin sia..

guess..

cos i stayed in the club room alone ba..

scary~

no sound at all..

after tt..

i left the room to find rick n ben.

with a heavy heart.

messy messy..

anyway.

ah kai pass his BTT le..

congrats..

mine is 21st..

scary.

i realli wanna pass at one go.

don wanna retake.

im serious.

k la.

i go 'baobao' my turtle liao.

retire~

carine

Sunday, June 29, 2008; 1:38 AM

im so loved!

haha..

fond memories flowed back while listenin to 'Canon In D'

the times in secondary sch..

the fun we had.

the trouble we got into.

the teacher we joked abt.

the times in GV.

the joy we had.

the mistakes we created.

in poly..

the laughter we shared.

the headaches we had.

memories memories.

they nv r lost.

jus left alone right at the back of the head.

man..

i miss basketball.

bounce bounce n shoot!

saw henry at coasta sand..

wonder is tt so much of coincidence..

tsk tsk..

all the way till pasir ris..

still see him..

jialat sia.

carine

HAPPY 21ST BDAY HANSHENG!

Saturday, June 28, 2008; 1:23 AM

yumyum!

im so HAPPY!

papers are finally over...

wanna thank the followin ppl esp for accompany mi at night.

1. MUTTONS

2. SOO

3. KAI

4. LUN

5. GLEN

6. ZY

did i miss anyone out?

tis peeps are those tt smses mi, msn mi, perk mi up

when im slpy..

TDY~

went out..

met up zhenn..

n her bf of cos.

n my 'hubby'

dots..

imagine my dear gal fren betrays mi..

help him be my 'hubby'

=.=

but im forgivin her...

she gave mi a hp pouch..

nice..

tho handwrk not v well done..

but i appreciated it..

lub it in fact ^^

see her so happily attached im happy for her..

hais..

whr's mine?

LOL

17 to 19

23 to drivin test

*scared*

carine

Wednesday, June 25, 2008; 12:08 AM

er. i'm takin a break now.

lookin at the time its 0010.

hee..

know wad?

it's si-mon bday.

my black prince

HAPPY BDAY!

pity him.

having exam during his bday.

haha..

finally 20th liao.

paper at 1015.

marketin..

all i rmb frm readin the notes are..

needs. wants. demand.

my need(s)..

sleep.

wants.

my own watch and a hooded jacket.

demands.

mum to leave me alone.

stepped on her tail jus now.

suay.

carine

Tuesday, June 24, 2008; 12:21 PM

face it.

im ready to fail tis paper.

im bloggin two hrs before the paper.

too many formula n figures.

i wonder how to rest are doin.

zzz.

v slpy.

slpy.

u noe wad's the cause of tis?

LOL

cos i donno how to reject ppl.

zhen's bf came to talk to mi.

accompany him till i chase him to bed.

aft tt..

talk crap to my sister till 3 plus.

kao.

realli dumb

oh well.

kailin

Monday, June 23, 2008; 11:07 PM

you knw how hard is it to stay un-sick?

man..

my nose tap is back agn..

the uncomfortable throat is down at the back of my mouth.

grr..

help mi.

T.T

carine

19 is 22days away.

grr.. tym pls stop.

Sunday, June 22, 2008; 10:49 PM

i hate muggin.

ok.

who love it?

anyway im hot tempered.

n like things to have it my way.

nid to grow up on that.

but i nv like ppl to scold mi.

in fact what do they have to scold?

they cant even handle their own prob.

back to mug.

carine

i'm home frm 'enjoyin'.

yea..

enjoyin when im suppose to mugg..

great..

went to Gramp tdy..

his condition isnt good to b frank..

i donno why.

i jus cant stop avoid the scene when i saw him tdy.

does it mean we'll become like tt aft sloggin for so long?

went to sch tdy.

actualli don intend to go.

ah gong ask mi to go.

since i cant study at home so i went.

manage to finish my 1st chpt.

wanted to do my plane a little de.

but they went to the club room too late.

oh well..

aft exam ba

met up with the gang at BV.

more appear than expected..

KB giv mi the 'f' wrds..

oh well..

went dinner at nydc..

not bad.. thou i like barnyard better.

went to harry's bar to drink.

bought mon a 'flaming lamboghini'

nice liqueor..

hhaha..

once down mon face turn RED..

LOL.

saw stan on my way home!

woots..

so long nv see him le..

gave him a gay hug! ^^

reach home n now facin my notes agn.

=.=

got to start.

be back aft exams!

carine ^^

Thursday, June 19, 2008; 12:10 AM

Symptoms of the commencement of exams

u start coughin n sneezing for no reason
u start feelin tired before 11pm comes
dark rings start appearin(cos u try too hard studyin at night )
ur hair band broke for no reason
the dust on ur table start to disappear
u start doin crappy stuff..

hahaha

carine is bored

Wednesday, June 18, 2008; 1:19 AM

i gt study.

i gt prove k!

cos my hair band broke.

study = head expand =too much expansion = hairband broke.

fed up w studyin

carine

Tuesday, June 17, 2008; 10:51 PM

oh man..
im bored to death.
studyin is BORING.
yes.. i don mind repeatin.
i'll go for anythin other than studyin for my exam.

takin a break.
yes. a break even tho i haven finish one chapt of my module.
u noe how hard is it to sit on the chair n study?

as i am findin my antique highlighters and i manage to find lots of other antique..
eg. letters frm my pri sch fren - 'jolene'
and pics of mi lookin young n innocent n blur.
those are realli antique.
hahas.

think i nid to get a new pen.
i cant go for exam without one.
hahas.
crap.

ok.. its gettin obvious im tryin to avoid studyin le.
lots of crap liao..

carine

Monday, June 16, 2008; 1:00 AM

happy bday qingg!

u're 19

like wad they say..

giv 20 dollar deres another 1 dollar change.

haha..

donno whr i heard it frm

but.

its better than nth?

messy messy..

esp with GV.

deres 4 reasons im stayin

1. kai

2. fab, qian, mei, sharon

2. pact

3. some cash?

tt's all.

most of the reasons tt i shd hav stayed is gone.

oh well.

carine

Sunday, June 15, 2008; 10:59 PM

i've been findin ways to avoid studying.

yea..

like sleepin early n stuff..

aft readin ms yeo blog..

i realise im realli behind...

tym to do sth abt it.

slap mi left right upsaide down..

ive made a promise tt i would nv touch my frens guy

i'll keep to it.

i mean.. not even the normal frens de.

i mean it. =)

oh ya..

went to PC show tdy.

didnt get anythin.

mum's glad..

didnt spend any money..

=.=

kai spent a lot..

but as a pressie for himself..

its worth it i think.

lol..

(im gg to get a watch for myself if mum don buy mi one!)

and ya.. saw ah gong at the venue.

saw huizhen bf too..

hope mon mon enjoyed himself tdy..

(hope he don read tis..)

lol..

i had fun makin fun of him..

he's not dumb.. n i fact v clvr..

gt most of the stuff i said..

n his expression was CUTE!

shh..

HAPPY FATHERS DAY

to all fathers.

includin my ah gongs.

carine

brother lun.. wish u all the best.

Saturday, June 14, 2008; 8:46 PM

seriously.

if i sae im not troubled, im lying.

realise im lost agn.

tot i found myself but looks like im wrong.

yeap~ sab..

u're right..

im hidin some stuff.

stuff that i donno how to express.

maybe its a habit i had from the past to be independent.

who doesnt wan a shoulder to lean on?

i felt at peace when i had one.

even by holdin the arm of my ah boy makes mi feel better.

at least i noe im not alone.

many do not know.

every little action and word anyone produce

may hav a great impact on mi.

sensitive.

hais.

for weilong thing..

i don wanna comment.

its his stuff to think abt.

tt's all i can sae.

carine

everyone has their secrets and lies.

Friday, June 13, 2008; 11:29 PM

hmm.. im so bored..

tt's y im doin tis..

hee =D

1. How long will you wait for someone you love?

it depends on how worthy the person is for mi to wait.

2. What do you want to do now?

sit n relax.

3. What will you be doing at 6pm?

ehh.. its almost 12.. wad u think?

4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?

sure do. even the closest one. but i tend i like them back ^^

5. Where do you wish to die?

somewhr under the stars with someone i love?

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

yes. normally i do.. cos we will always smile after cryin =)

7. What impossible things you wish to do?

help as many ppl as i can.. i mean i hardly have time for myself..

its even harder to find time for others.. saded..

8. Your darkest secret?

ehh.. i dontch noe too.. mayb.. i noe how to lie very well?

9. Are you happy with your life now?

er.. not realli.. mayb i wld if i gt someone to love??

10. What if your crush asked you out?

^^ wad u think? hahas.

11. Describe your other half?

wad i wan is a guy who is understandin, mature, sensitive and kind?

12. What feelings do you hate the most?

indecisiveness and loneliness.

13. What will you do if you fall in love w your best guy/girl friend?

er.. depend who is he?

14. What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?

endin of exams n fyp? n of cos findin someone perfect for mi =)

15. The most important thing in your life?

my family? and.. whoever i cared?

16. Who do you hope to always be there for you?

2F n 1L- family frens n loved ones.

17. Do you find life meaningless?

not realli.. if u looked in a +ve angle..

18. Who do you love the most?

hee.. my ah boy, bros, sis, n... dontch noe..

19. The craziest thing(s) you ever did.

slp on the floor of the train.

20. What's your greatest wish?

more freedom and peace n harmony..

The people that I have tagged to do this quiz:

kaiyi, junkai and anyone willing & free to do so...

carine

we can see anything only if we can jus open our eyes and see.

Thursday, June 12, 2008; 3:22 PM

a short update on wad happen ytd.

nth much..

like i said..

im zi ai de..

especially tt ah kai ar..

tsk tsk..

in the afternoon went to CGH to see ah gong.

den meet lantern to bugis to meet the rest.

aft tt.. split ourselves n went to chinatown n lavender.

den i decide to meet my pal dere at clarke quay instead of gg back to JE.

meetin the pals we went to hav dinner at 'manhatten fish market'

not bad..

fish was one of the 'freshest' one tt i ever had.

prob tt we had.. too many ppl..

lol..

to talk across the table was really hard.

aft tt.. i wanna apologise..

i mixed up boat n clarke quay..

thus we had to walk frm clarke to boat quay..

sry sry..

but i hope u guys enjoyed eski-bar..

the ambience was good...

we had a couple of drink..

i kinda like water fall..

bay breeze was nicee too..

find tt ten ten is so funny

she suddenly ran out of the bar when she cnnt withstand the cold.

haahahha..

then the guys left..

n i met up with lantern agn..

went to mac..

watched the openin of the euro for the day..

wonderin whether portugal will win?

haha..

anyway.

we went to east coast to beach cabarna aft he had his 'dinner'

nice place for releasin of stress..

i had s'pore sling.

nice!

its great being 18 n abv..

lol.

glen n nana went to get glen's lorry

while mi n yiming cum edw had some chat..

nth much jus relaxin chat..

den sabby called..

can hear how dessie she wanna join us..

oh well aft exam ba babe ^^

went to changi beach.

saw ah guas, planes and the grasshoppers.

father glendy gave mi some talk on maturity.

=.=

oh well..

tt's the end of the activities.

i thank those who compliment abt my 'femaineness' ytd.

yeap.

i can b girly if i wan to =D

oh man i'll miss boon de..

im starting to do so le.

he's always the one which had a great impact on mi.

n i found a great fren.

SI-MON~

tho he ps-ed mi ytd.

#.-

carine

Sunday, June 08, 2008; 10:55 PM

here to do a entry before my beauty slp

(been a nasty panda tis few days)

after all.. i nid to advertise kungfu panda. LOL.

=.=

been realli hardwrkin tis few days.

not on studyin

but on plannin for wed.

hopefully those pals of mine.

reply my email..

or i'll!!

wanna thnx benjamin hohoho n lantern.

haha.

for tips n stuff..

look like its eski-bar dey wan.

oh well..

double-o can wait..

haha.

i nid to kick myself n get on w studyin le.

hais.

anyw went shoppin tdy.

spend money.

hahas.

cant resist frm buyin some stuff tt i don realli nid.

but i guess sometimes u jus hav to spend some.

k la.

gtg.

night.

carine

Saturday, June 07, 2008; 5:30 PM

i'm tired.

very tired.

lack of slp is killing mi.

oh well.

here's a paragraph..

dear babes and dudes,

im so sorry for missing out outings this few days,

need lot and lots of time for what is going around.

i seek ur understanding.

thank you.

tt's all..

hope we can hav more find time tgt

carine

i joked abt my black prince.

Friday, June 06, 2008; 4:26 AM

im screwed.

cos i forgot to set alarm.

dumb i noe.

but.

nvm.

=.-

sometimes i jus don get it.

some ppl jus manage to potray a false image in frnt

yet others do not see it.

carine =)

Thursday, June 05, 2008; 1:48 AM

tym to do some self-reflection.

dere's sth wrong w mi tis few days.

i donno whether did i think too much or..

i've been realli gettin on others' nerves.

its not only abt others.

its abt mi.

it seems tt everything i've done had irritated others.

i donno y n i hav no clue at all.

jus a feelin tho.

may b due to me being too sensitive or..

i dontch noe~

talkin to kaiyi, kai n lex now.

v tired le.

tmr long day agn

night.

mental note

venue for bday.

dinner venue

theme of the day

fyp

manu.

carine

Wednesday, June 04, 2008; 3:44 AM

im a bad gal

cos its 0344 in the morning and i jus came home.

ahh..

donno y i went supper for.

oh well.

partly cos of ah lun.

he's gg in army le.

wanna spend some tym w him.

in the end..

i was a little 'seh'

haven recover frm camp tiredness..

but i still wanna enjoy myself.

gg to see ah gong at changi hospital.

frankly later.

i donno how to go..

anyone to volunteer to bring mi dere?

moved in to kai's locker.

without tell the manager.

not tt i care.

scold mi.

make mi quit.

im so tired of facing tiredness.

upcomin programme.

bdays.

clubbin or pubbin.

i haven decide..

anyone can giv mi tips on tt??

grr..

tmr another round till 3 or 4 in the mornin.

oppx..

LOL.

oh ya.

*mental note*

to find my indenmity form.

to pass to yiming on fri!

=.=

nid to play treasure hunt agn~

carine

Monday, June 02, 2008; 11:43 PM

I was tagged by rachel to ans the following qns.

(im sorry for the late response)o.o

1. What disappoints you the most?

betrayal and distrust happens

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?

hmm. venice.

3. What's your favorite thing to do?

sleeping, camping, chalet, and day dreamin.

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?

not really. they cant buy away sadness.

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?

peace n harmony between people (war and disaster-free)

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?

people around me.

7. If you win $1 million, What would you do?

giv half to my mum ,buy a car and donate the rest. =)

8. What do you dream of doing in the future?

to be able to spend enuf tym for wrk n everyone ard mi.

9. List out 3 goods points of the person who tagged you?

cute, cheerful, cartoon.

10. What makes you happy?

seeing others happy.

11. What type of person do you hate the most?

indecisive n liars.

12. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?

in a place whr i want to b most. =)

13. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?

invisibility

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

everything.

15. If it's the end of the world, what will it be your last wish?

let the last moment b the happiest.

16. If you have a chance to choose, would you want to go back in time? When will it be?

no. i want to move fwd.

17. What anime character you like the most?

suzuka.

18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like him/her?

no. i rather remain silent.

19. Are you happy with what you are doing now?

yes n no.

20. List 1 bad thing about the person who tagged you to do these questions?

she's too blur? hahaha.. kiddin.

im suppose to tag someone.

but i decide not to.

carine

im back frm camp..

i missed everyone=)

esp ah boy(kai)~

haha..

tt y i sms him every nyte.

cos.. its like a habit to tok to him every night.

camp was alright.

we had fun, disagreement, learning exprience and bla bla bla with one another.

whether good or bad..

they are part of our memories.

in tis camp..

i play a role of 'zha ba lam'

which mean i deal w almost everythin.

admin, camper, food, bla bla bla.

n i enjoy it.

at least i tried everythin

haha.

was disappointed tt i didnt join water bomb.

but.

nvm.

on the last day i'm a little..

er..

wad shd i sae..

high?

at least sab tot im siao.

but actualli i was thinkin abt some stuff to distract.

oh well.

i donno wad the rest feel w my feedback.

but all i can sae.

i wasnt pinpointin.

jus an opinion, a reflection.

felt the 'accused' look

but if dey wanna think tt way.

i can do absolutely nth abt it.

anyway.

its over.

kai sae i shd stay away frm club more.

mayb i shd.

but only after i clear up the mess in the club room durin the hol.

any exco gg?

nid the key

n my stuff still inside.

okay~

plans for the followin days.

5th - ubin with SPAVC (shd not b gg)

7th - sentosa w GV (still pending)

11th - kai's bday celeb (cfm hav to go~)

yeaps..

shd b tt's all..

23-27 June: MST (die!)

tym to buck up if i wanna pass.

been slpin in class too much.

=.=

carine

picts to b upload once i gt hold of it.