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Saturday, December 30, 2006; 4:49 AM

messy~messy~messy~

yoyo~~

long time no update le.. haha.. hmm.. jus settle myself down frm work n my shower.. ani if my eyes are not playin tricks on mi its 5 am in the mornin.. haha.. askin wad the hell im doin here.. i also donno.. but its been a long time i come on9.. hee..

its another 2 days before 2007 reaches.. my new yr resolution is still pendin.. hopefully i can accomplish some of the resolution during the year(hopefully!)

durin xmas, we went to PS for swensen.. yea... tt mean cost a bomb.. im officially broke tho my pay has come, i still have the feelin of broke.. cos i think i realli spend a lot this time... haha..aft tt we went to orchad fer a walk walk.. cos i nv walk in orchard durin xmas b4.... haha.. had fun takin neo prints... the pictures came out quite well.. in fact can b consider the best few i have taken.. lol.. den when i went back to the west.. meeet up w my old gang n xchange the pressie.. tis yr present is better than the past few.. except a little disappointment here n dere.. lol.. but the best thing i actualli forgot to pass chinz her bdae present n now its still with mi.. lol..

hmm.. today.. work as eos.. damn sian esp aft project with ah boon (which is realli stupid.. cos our grp has 5 ppl n ended up only 2 ppl turn up; mi n ah boon) sian halfway lor.. nvm.. made my kor angry agn.. don ask mi y... i donno either.. but think cos i went makan ba.. lol.. nvm.. its ver.. part of my past le.. another new day has come... *yawn* im tired le.. willl update agn... Hana Kimi rawks!!! *quan*..*ella* awww.. haa.. k nights.. or morn??? lol ><

Saturday, December 23, 2006; 4:28 PM

-fo0fillInG-

haiz~

ytd was sure a fulfillin dae.. filled w fun, joy, discussion, n unhappiness..

in the mornn~~ went to alexandra hosp to see my fren who had a op.. was late.. aggrr.. i realli apologise for tt.. sob sob.. den me n sa sat on the bus to wad mall called as anchor pt.. yea.. hais.. den we took a long walk all the way to see the one who is on the hosp bed.. realised tt we donno which blk.. siann.. ask the nurse.. damn nice i realised.. hee.. den finalli found put is not the one i've asked.. hais.. the toopid guy.. don even noe whr is he..

happily happily went up.. found him.. n his mama.. v nice lady.. hee.. stared at the bread by the bedside.. realised im hungry.. haha.. wan to eat n got sae tt im fightin his food with him.. den come the nurse with a cup of milo.. everyone of us loooked at his milo.. haha.. terrible.. cant believe he syill can drink without realisin it..

aft the visit, went to tiong for food.. haa.. so happy.. Mos burger.. nice.. fulfillin sia.. aft tt rush to ECP agn.. lol.. went there like so mani time le.. lol..

met up with kor's gang.. tok crap w wendy they all.. den bbq!! haha.. food not bad la.. got so mani chef there.. but like not happy.. when gg hm almost got strangle by him.. but forgiven cos ice cream treat.. cool.. hee.. satisfyin.. hee..

big thing come le.. on the bus i donno wad i said.. made him go into dark silent.. siann halfway le.. i think said smth which i didnt think properly ba.. but realli lorr.. i'm tryin to think b4 i tok le.. but somehow i fail to do so.. hais.. miserable sia..

realised smth too.. he's a little too overprotective on me le.. i prefer to b left alone sometyme.. cos i not like those gal gal who like every attention they wanna lay their hands on.. but im not them i wanna to b left alone.. n i think tt y he tot i didnt treat him like a bro.. hais.. k la stop here..

Sunday, December 17, 2006; 8:58 PM

xxxmemoriesxxx

winkxx~

fri we had a great time.. in ECP.. bleahxx.. edwin who cant join us de end up joinin us cos BB cancelled.. wee~~ took a long ride frm WCP to ECP.. almost feel like vomittin tt y aft the ride saw a 'candy bar' n bought sweets.. hee.. when we reach the the stop we walk over to ECP.. but im already v tired.. lol.. from travellin.. worst thing.. upon reachin.. it rained heavily.. lol.. damn suay..

even worst! it rain when we are in the water it rained agn.. however, jus a passin one too.. hee.. noe wad? i love the wave the strong wind has caused.. damn shiok.. bleah.. but a little bit difficult to paddle.. half way nana got a stomach pain? hee.. trey they all helped her to shore.. me n sab cont to struggle w the paddlin.. after all the first time we realli did kayakin.. back to shore sab kena hit by the kayak.. 2 black-blue.. -.-ll the guys went over n pull nana's kayak.. n mingyi knee's pain agn.. when showerin mi n sab end up takin a 'stroll' at ECP before showerin lol..

after all the showerin n talkin.. the gang got separated.. left mi n mingyi waitin for sab in the shower.. cos we r cabbin back hm.. told us tt mac will have lots of taxi.. we end up strollin n talkin crap for an hr plus.. met a 'interestin guy who ask ming mani weird weird stuff.. mi n sab come up w a plan.. ask sab to walk off first den i drag ming along.. was wonderin if im not dere they wld stuck dere bah.. lol when we reach mac.. didnt take cab immediately.. in fact went for 'teabreak'? lol.. cos hungry ma.. hee..

yup.. tt all for tt dae.. saturday.. muscle ache.. damn.. lol.. barely can lift up my arms hee.. but i still went for shoppin for clothes bought a pant n a Skirt,, can u believe it.. lol.. but realli.. hee.. tryin to more feminine? hahaz..

hais~ kor fell out of love.. don sound good at all.. damn sad lorr.. someone told mi he's gg try agn.. siann.. actualli think he wont suceed but think he's gg to try agn no matter wad.. don feel like seein him get hurt agn.. but if i told him off.. im not givin any support to him.. can see tt he don realli feel like tellin mi wad gg to happen.. cos told his bud but not mi.. however i'll still wish him all the best.. yup.. tt's all i can sae.. im quite speechless.. cant even help myself.. sob..

Thursday, December 14, 2006; 10:13 PM

wee~~

yeap.. its another day which is gg to end le.. tmr we gg to ECP!! hee.. years since i went ther.. but that 4jie hor suddenly back out!! why? sob sob.. of all time pang seh me..

hais tell the truth im realli tired.. cos ytd talk till to late last night.. zzz.. how i wish i can be very sure he is true with his wrds.. cant help but suspect his wrds... worst w this guy keep stickin on me.. tt feelin totally sux.. how i wish i can tell him str i don like him n can he keep a dist frm mi or not.. hais..

k la.. im realli fed up.. nid my bed.. hope lao da like his present n get well soon..

Tuesday, December 12, 2006; 5:09 PM

-*him? who?*-

yo~~

hee.. long time no update.. think im gg to MIA.. don wanna appear le.. hais...

tdy.. first time we literalli pon lesson..or let sae 2 lessons.. haha.. frtlog and navsaf.. haha.. cos tdy no seamanship.. so might as well pon lorrr... me n xue.. went to queensway shoppin ctr.. shoppin.. okie.. aft 1 hr i stoned(kor don wanna hear ur comment) hee.. cos im a bad shopper ma.. cant blame mi for tt.. u noe.. i jus cant help shoppin too long... bleah..

bought some stuff.. like the wrist band esp.. don think i bear to giv lao da le.. will ask him to share with mi.. one for him n one for mi.. hee.. but doubt he so kind de.. haha.. but realli its the last yr im gg to see him le.. sae tt he gg out to sea.. sob~~

hais.. i sound happy don i?
but i don.. esp when he gg for the op.. haiz.. damn scary lor..
esp imaginin doin smth to the ligament.. i scare he will like daryl.. end up quittin sch at the end of the day.. i still blame myself for askin him out tt day.. whr i think he hurt his knee when its quite bad le.. i know he will sae not my fault or wadeva cos he hurt himself while playin outside w his fren de..

omg omg.. haiz.. told myself i have to forget him de.. why i jus keep rememberin him??? aggr.. i hate it.. but how to forget the time we spend n share..
they r the things which are deeply engraved in my mind;
-the first time we play bad (whr i realli get to noe his existenance)
-the time whr we went to mac for icecream durin chacdevt lesson
-memories of the time spend in the chalet tokin abt our lives n craps
-the images of snake in the movie at marina sq.
-the k box session which we enjoyed..

yea i noe..

i might mean nth in his heart

but to me,

he mean a lot..

Friday, December 08, 2006; 3:30 PM

*/sick.. till i drop..*/

yeah~

today went out to sea agn.. hmm.. im got more and more the sense of belong of this course.. maritime rox! hee.. but realli.. love the time we went out to sea or in the water itself.. the smell of the sea~ hee.. realli love it man! bleah.. went out to sea w the lecturer(potatoe) mary (cucumber) [hahs] benjamin n viggy.. bleah.. saved trey who volunteer to drop in the water(didnt bring towel tt y didnt jump..sian~~) hee.. but we learn how to pull trey into the boat.. so fun..

after tt we went to clementi for lunch dajie n sanjie.. hee.. hmm let me rmb wad we eat.. meepok n duck noodles? yea.. wad i love most is the sugar cane juices.. realli swt.. ><

after went home le.. cos v tired.. although i wanna slp but cant cos my blog skinn got some prob.. aniwae.. now its ok le.. think gg to retain it for at least one mth. haa.. oh ya jus now when i waitin for bus i saw a mother bein unreasonable n wanna 'save her face'.. ya i noe. don b kpo but i cant help it she realli tok kong lorr.. her child cry wanna jus the toilet she scold n hit him sia.. but cant tahan le ma.. he realli nid the toilet lorr.. still sae so much crap den finalli we(ppl waitin for bus) stared at her den she bring him to the toilet.. unreasonable right.. hais..

get home first thing i did is to shower.. cos i feel sticky frm all the sea breeze.. haa.. den pia my blogg skin watch hana kimi at th esame time aggr.. ella realli cute!!! hee. my fav SHE idol..><

k la.. i got to go le.. slp.. btw found the location which walter is in now.. ITALY.. that rich guy.. sure noe how to enjoy.. n didnt bring mi along.. sure is good fren man.. haha.. buaiz.. hope xue have a great time at camp!!=)

Thursday, December 07, 2006; 12:14 PM

//sick.. frm viruses n missin fren..//

yoyo.. long time no update le.. jie naggin le.. hee

this few days fell sick.. v tired.. the day after k box.. no voice cos went to k box with a sore throat.. haha.. n sing so much despite the throat thingy.. haiz.. saddist.. lol.. but had fun is wad it matters.. bleah... the day b4 ytd n ytd had fever.. haha.. no choice.. im a weakling u noe? hees..

this few days didn sms anione cos im realli tired of thinkin too much.. so.. i apologise for those who sms mi n i didnt reply.. partly cos my sms explode le.. sob..

noe wad? i sort of misses walter le.. long time no see him u noe.. at least i still manage to see my mei when she wan her comp pass.. but walter? no news at all.. sae wanna date mi out.. lyin.. hais.. but mayb he's oversea or smth.. mayb he has a gf le? woo! good luck to him man.. butcant abandon mi too ma.. must at least tell this gong gong de fren this good news.. *disappointin* bleah.. k la.. i stop here.. how i wish i can go watch the phantom of the opera.. aggr .. whr's my rich husband??? lol... stop here.. 19days to xmas.. haha..

Monday, December 04, 2006; 10:37 PM

~k boX~

woo! todae shiok ar!! went k box for singin.. hahas.. cos.. its lina b'day!!! hee.. went ther w guys n my sisters!! this include.. lina (bday gal) sabby xue edwin (asistant PR) mingyi(asistant PR) ah boon leo(da ge) wilson n me(PR rep) ! lol.. had lots of fun.. sing to wadeva shit.. lol.. eng chi n hockkein(can u believe it?) i still love the happi den good(direct translation..bleah!) but realli nice when everyone sing in harmony..well we can all sense that the bday gal like not v happy..(even the insensitive ah ming oso think tt) hais.. but hopefully she's fine with it.. tried my best le.. the best song i sang is jay's 'tui hou' damn nice lor.. aggr.. hee.. shit.. rmb mp3 flat le.. hais..

haiz.. back to prob.. the du du kor donno tdy fever or wad sia.. suddenly tell mi those thing... cause mi no peace of mind.. even in k box.. when i stop singin i tot of wad he said.. hopefully i can come up w a decicion.. i think i still cant stop thinkin of him.. still like him as much as in the past.. so those guy i doubt i'll b able to accept.. i tot i can forget but it doesnt seem to work.. will see how things goes lor..

damn got someone scold fcuk in front of mi agn.. hais.. don wanna bother abt other ppl.. cant even solve my own prob oso.. er.. actualli nth to solve oso.. so better pretend everything donno is the best.. hee..

Saturday, December 02, 2006; 3:36 PM

//p0pUlaR? i wanna b uNkNown!!//

aggr.. whr ish my jie!!! haiz.. realli nid her to tell her smth.. think im gg to break down now.. don feel like gg to work le.. im startin to regret steppin into gv for application for job, for not leavin with mei.. not b cos of the pay or wadeva... realli enjoy the times i had there.. whr i made lots of frens there n have fun while workin.. non-stress place..

howeva.. i'm hatin my presence there.. can sense tt im a little too 'popular' there.. popular in a -ve way.. aiya donno wad to sae.. complicated relationship.. yea so wad kor got the right sensitivity.. theres nth i can do.. esp when he sae 60% i'll reject him.. i was there 'seh' y he would sae tt?? i realli don understand.. this cause me nightmare n a headche.. cant think properly animore.. however.. am i gg to let my heart rule over my head.. n let myself follow blindly?? don ask mi.. i realli donno..

mayb i've reply him a little too rush.. cos in my heart there still this person i cant realli forget.. yea him.. wad i realli had in mind now is will i regret the wadeva decision i've made.. moreover how abt his fren? would they end up as enemy? i realli hope i've nv been there b4 and things wont get into this complicated stage... finali theres someone i have a little feelin for.. its realli complicated..

in addition, i can sense dislike of mi in gv le.. some give mi those kind of feelin of detest while workin.. don ask mi who cos im not gg to tell.. doubt i can survive in this kind of stressfuk environment.. thsi is not the kind of mi i wanna be.. i hate it!

haiz.. by complainin so much.. nth i can realli do.. might as well forget it.. lettin things happen on its own.. stupid thing to do.. but cant think of anything better..

hmm.. mondae comin soon k box.. lol.. but im sick.. damn.. forget it.. drink more honey.. haha..yea tt's all.. hope xue hurry come back.. got lots to bomb her with.. hee.. n of cos wishin nana a hApPi b'DaE =))

Friday, December 01, 2006; 4:08 PM

-cheated-

heee.. here to blog!!! okie.. i jus blogged ytd.. hmm.. this time i spent 1.5hr on this.. keep on error.. haha.. but nvm.. v satisfied.. think its time to get out of black skinn.. hee.. someemore its a more cheerful one..

tdy was suppose to go to PM for filmin n lesson but den the camera man had diarr. shitter.. not tt im not happy due to no camera but hq mus inform us earlier ma.. we brought so mani barang barang.. hee.. but the life boat thingy not bad.. cos we got lots of stuff to do.. instead of slackin.. haaha.. but claire forgot to plug in the plug and the lifeboat is filled w water.. they were laufin at her cos tis can cause the lifeboat to sink w 30 person inside.. lol.. v bad.. but v funni..

yea.. went to je for lunch donno wad i buy until so much sia.. as usual.. im the one who spent the most.. aggr.. christmas pressie how?? i lost my shoppin list.. kor's pressie the most difficult de.. lao da de i tot of it le.. hee.. siann.. hmm.. got promoted as someone's true frn le.. so happi.. and.. one guy v cute.. in msn i put i nid a bf.. n he come n sae he's tendering his resume.. haha.. v cute right.. but realli kor suddenly sae until so solemly.. like scare i luan luan lai like tt.. haha..

xue.. gg for her prep camp le.. hais.. like v unstable leh her.. nowadays her mood swing easily.. hais.. i donno wad to do oso.. told MY i'm not gg to interfer le.. all i can is to watch..felt useless but i cant do much saw the sms she sent mi b4.. told mi tt if i wanna help jus act as if nth happen u shld noe mi.. how to.. but i'll try my best de.. gg to bed le..