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Sunday, September 30, 2007; 9:29 PM

tmr's monday...

zzz..

sch agn..

n i'm sick..

feelin v uncomfortable..

got a feelin tt tis gg to b a great one..

haven been fallin sick since the last 6 mths.. make it 7!

when im at attachment been prayin to fall sick..

and now... im sick.. damn..

cant afford to mc..

if i did..

cfm cnnt catch up w the rest..

hee..

not as if i care..

hahas..

went for movie..

nice!

hmm..

actualli not much reaction..

watched the endin lk donno how many times le..

hahas..

hope BL will clear my bottle..

forgot to tell him so..

change shift w ryan for wed..

think i don wanna face the customer w a sore throat..

n somemore thurs 8 plus start lesson..

might get to sick to go sch..

(always happen when i don have enuf slp)

but i feel v guilty for changin..

not v nice.. hais...

how??

nvm..

see how..

mayb don nida change.

gtg..

--carine--

Thursday, September 27, 2007; 12:07 AM

its dark i noe

cant slp..

haix..

wonderin whr have i gone wrong?

things jus goes haywire somehow or another.

how i wish i can have the ctrl of things ard mi..

so i wont have so much headache..

ask all of u who are readin this.. (tho i think none..)

wud u rather have someone

who like u but u don lk back

who u lk but tt someone don lk u back?

this seem so common..

even myself can think of the solution for them..

psy lect said..

try not to giv other a solution advice them

tell them the consequences..

nv tell them a definite ans..

hmm..

im gg toward tt..

so nice..

bel's last dae..

sad thing..

i'll miss her naggin..

of cos and her smiles..

haha..

appreciated everything she has done..

inclu calculatin the 24 hrs for mi..

haha...

so honoured to b the first person to write on the card =)

stann told mi sth jus now..

i swear im not runnin away frm anything..

too senstive is a prob..

hais..

facts to share:

researchers have proven that the optimal hrs to slp is 7 hrs daily..

too much or too little will double the chances of getting a heart attack

[trust or not.. up to u]

i kinda trust it..

haha..

smile while u can..

cos frown is on the wae..

*-carine-*

Wednesday, September 26, 2007; 3:40 PM

todae is the third dae of my sch days..

hmm..

i would lk to thnx wl for the encouragin sms on first dae..

would oso lk thnx my sisters for toleratin mi..

been late n been slpin in class..

i guess talkin is a lot easier than implementin it..

i got a feelin im gone for this sem..

still sae wanna maintain in 3.. can forget abt it..

no mood to study at all..

lookin at those wrds..

feel lk slping..

zzz..

actualli.. i've been slpin this few days in class..

cant control it..

hais..

who can help?!?!!

mon kinda bad cos im not feelin good..

went out w shin n his 'fren'

was grumpy..

ytd..

went to lantern..

with my old sec sch fren whom i barely talk to..

n GV ppl whom i didnt realli join them..

was takin care of my sis..

hee.. wad to do..

but ok la..

was dead tired aft all those activity.. ^ ^

tdy.. jus now went lunch w the MPA colleague

not bad.. they still got lots of lameness..

l8r gg to GV..

farewell dinner for bel..

she leavin liao..

siann...

another leavin..

the new C/E is..

*speechless*

nvm.. we gay villiage will help each other out..

im waitin for someone..

who n how does he look lk?

whr is ah dam??!!

>carine<

Friday, September 21, 2007; 11:54 PM

here's the entry for tdy!!!

well.. basicalli..

today is a v fulfillin or u wanna call it a bzy day for mi..

suddenly a bball session announcement pop out last night..

and was told its the last one for this hol..

cos sch is starting!!

haha..

cant wait..

so i woke up at 9.15 to get ready..

was ready at 9.30 when sms BL n told mi he's ready too..

den went to bball.. till.. 2 plus.. den lunch..

(was behind schedule.. but heck la)

after tt.. cleaned all the fan at home..

sweep n mop the flr..

hmm..

n guess wad.. its 5.30..

late! haha.. meetin fren at 630 at vivo..

tsk tsk..cant blame mi can u??

haha.. okok..

aft all the make up n stuff.. reach dere at 720..

haha.. totalli late..

but they didnt care...

cos they are eatin..

hmm.. not bad the food.. hee =DD

after tt.. walked ard n shop for gummies n mini toon..

last but not least.. ice cream at ben n jerry..

nice!!!

hee..

aniwae..

KexIn!! happy 18!!

ok im a lill retarded.. but tots tt counts ok!!

haha..

feel lk breakin my probation agn..

hais..

cant stop myself frm fallin for ppl..

but can see.. someone tot i lk BL..

but i don ok..

he's someone nice but he's not gg to b n im not realli interested in him..

(as if he is interested in mi.. chey)

haha.. ^ ^

not bad!!! woo..

im burnt..

sun burnt..hoho~

@carine@

Thursday, September 20, 2007; 3:54 AM

hmm..

short entry..

v tired..

wanna apologise my attitude durin dinner..

guess im too insensitive..

but im realli cant face the whole pict yet.

i promise to b a better colleague..=D

tdy was ok..

almost got scare by fab..

grab my leg..

but wad realli frightenin is when he sit at the stairs when i tot it was empty..

zzz..

guess im gettin closer to the GV family..

but i hav to learn whr is the limit..

nid to take care who can joke n who cant..

gtg..

**carine**

Wednesday, September 19, 2007; 12:52 AM

im still alive..

hahas..

gt a little sunburn..

weak!

hais..

too long nv expose to the sun..

luckily i nv go swimmin..

i'll be worst if i did..

hee..

tdy is a gd one..

cos i smell bad aft the game..

haha..

the whole bus stink when we board it..

-.-

learn a no. of thingy frm them..

but the gals tt join us are..

woo~ scary..

good players..

but rough ^ ^

fab oso join us tdy..

nv noe he play so well..

but.. jq psed us...

luckily i didnt promise to go..

or i'll die dere.. haha..

thns stan for the offer..

but no thnxx.. haha...

k la..

im beat..

tata~

i still think i haven chose wrongly..

we still shud b frens..

abt.. MH.. i think i don have feelin for him..

so don provoke mi..

>carine<

Monday, September 17, 2007; 11:11 PM

i don care..

im not changing my mind..

im releasing all my burden..

single n alone is wad i have in mind..

shin.. thanks for tdy..

acc mi even when u're unwell..

n for makin fun of my evrything.. (damn u)

cheers..

sry fab.. to pospone our shopping.. ^ ^

meet at 5 on wed?hee..

n sry for disturbin ur slp..

see ya tmr..

drivin theory.. 27 NOV...

2 mths ++... zzz..

gg to pass w one attempt..

ms yeo help mi~~

love ya~ =DD

im gettin more lk les..

haha..

[carine]

Sunday, September 16, 2007; 3:13 AM

realise sth?

i didnt blog my second day at flr..

sux totally..

hais..

im sick n tired..

thus i made my stand at 3am last night..

when im runnin home..

i shall officially broke all ties w any bro i've made all my yrs..

that inclu sec sch..

(but we can still b frens~

esp CP.. im all ready to hear him grumble anytime)

except one..

lao da..

cos he's not in singapore..

^ ^

my mood was darn bad last night..

but im ctrlin it well..

not gg blame anyone for anything..

but made a gd fren

tai heng..

haha..

v cute.. still entertain ourselves last night..

zzz..

but it wont b long till he leavin GV..

hais..

siann..

guess wad??

ytd saw a guy givin a bouquet of flower to a gal..

kaoz..

tt's so swt~

hais..

tdy BOX!!

its amazin tt i did nt short money n i noe wad to do~

so nice..

esp the song played in office..

BIG GIRLS..

haha..

lala~

im bored...

the comin wk is packed..

mon-gg out w shin to BBDC n GEMS appt

tue- not realli sure yet..

wed- wrkin

thurs- dinner w tam?

fri- celeb w sec frens

sat- chinese garden

sun- prepare for sch~

woa..

tsk tsk

bz~ haha.. hardly gt time for wrk

tt's all for tdy..

i've made up my mind..

n will not change it..

=carine=

Friday, September 14, 2007; 3:21 AM

first day at floor..

not bad..

other than the high bld pressure caused by STANLEY!!

haa..

tt guy keep on gayin during his wrk..

cnnt tahan him..

hais..

BL still ask mi to tame him..

how to??

esp when he join in the gay club himself too..

tsk tsk..

now is abt 3.27 am..

still so early..

hahs..

tho im tired..

aniwae..

HAPPY B'DAE FAB!! ^ ^

he's finally 18.. (oppx)

well..

hope he matures.. lol..

tmr flr EOS agn..

hope nth happen.. ><

nxt tue Bball.. n swimmin..

u think i wld go?

no wae man~

swimmin.. showin off my off shape figure..

brr..

shiver at the tot of it..

hahas..

gtg..

^^v

GPA 4 is lk nth in attachment..

-carine-

Thursday, September 13, 2007; 4:12 AM

ok..

heres a short entry while i finish my milo n back to bed i go..

the day tt jus passed is one gd one..

hee.. haven been active so such a long time..

u can hear my bones cracked..

hee..

tue went runnin w shin..

haha.. 2.4.. its lk yrs since i did tt..

almost killed myself..

he's realli nice.. acc mi wait for sis..

hais..

partialli thik he oso gt nth to do..

hahas..

another thing cos im realli 'dear' to him?

haha... which idiot will acc u at 4 to talk till 6?

other than mi.. haha..

tdy.. or ytd..

went for bball..

ok.. i sux..

totalli bad.. air ball totalli..

sad.. no strength..

hopefully my arm don ache..

tmr floor..

bball not bad la.. other than stanley..

the others were.. wow!

lol..

k la..

finished my milo..

night / mornin

0carine0

hated when my head gt hit.

by ball or by hand.

Monday, September 10, 2007; 4:03 PM

its been one wk back at wrk..
not bad la..
at least not as bad as i've tot..
hee..
managers have been nice..
esp bel.. cos she didnt schedule mi w ppl i donno..
think i would die if im wrkin w ppl i donno..

hee..
tis wk got gd n bad..
bad..
my arm muscle ache until lk siao..
barely can take my arm up..
sore..

good..
enjoyed myself..
tho a little left out..
but tt's hardly a prob..
hee..
well
one more...
few day ago went to BL's bday supper..
hahas..
v funny..
wee~
here's one pict.. or two..

wonderin wad he doin?

diggin out a candle in the cake with his mouth..

a little disgustin tho..

haha..

gtg...

buai~

//carine//

Friday, September 07, 2007; 1:04 PM

arghh..

hell.. im realli dying..

tired.. but i cant slp ani longer..

so im takin ti lill stupid time to do blogging...

wont b bloggin nxt few days.. gg to do sth to my blogskin..

enjoy the song.. i lk the starting..

v sentimental..

=DD

happenings on last night..

went back to mpa collect my log book..

den to vivo w tam for dinner..

donno wth i gt persuade to pool..

to watch.. hahas

damnned.. game las longer than expected..

so i went hm thru a bus n a cab..

reach hm.. ma cold war w mi..wadeva

had enuf liao... sian..

shower den plonk myself in frm of the com..

guess wad i left my log bk in tam's car..

how dumb can i be..(no comment frm fab pls)

so stayin up for another few mins for the log book..

don feel lk slpin reading on9 comics w fab..

den rcv a msg frm old fren..

went out at 4 plus..

met n talk till5 plus.. breakfast till 6..

reach hm giv tam a morn call..

den thump! dead on the bed..

damn.. donno who call mi in the morn..

but i don rmb the content of the conv aniwae..

haha..

feel lk gg back to slp.. but i cant do tt.. hais.. shit la..

later wrk will emo liaoo..

*cross finger*

talkin abt tt..

chatted w a old fren..

told mi i've changed..

wasnt realli makin a big fuss over *changing*

i noe i become a lot more emo liao...

emo don even seems to exist den..

but now.. they do..

hahas..

=tired=

carine

Thursday, September 06, 2007; 2:58 AM

short short entry..

2nd day of wrk..

not bad.. at least ah bel they all put mi w ppl i noe..

tt inclu les.

i rather got him niam niam niam

than to have the whole candy bar filled w ppl i donno

i realli mean it ok..

actualli im not bias la..

les is ok.. as long as he keep his mouth to himself..

hee..

i can see how difficult serene look..

im tryin my best not to make things diff..

ok la.. nxt wrk if i kena all candy bar..

im gg to cry.. haha..

not tt i hate it.. but horr

my hands peelin liao..

think is excessive detergent ytd...

while washin popper..

hee..

wonder wad gems im takin..

hee..

k la.. bed tym..

~carine~

Saturday, September 01, 2007; 11:21 AM

wee~ im back!

ok no missing of home at all..

tt y i love camp.. away frm home...

hahas.. shh~

this camp is not gd..

no shuai ge.. no much fun.. and nth to buy..

worst is almost sea sick..

damn.. the sea is realli rocky..

until now.. i still haven get over it..

below are some pict..

some to test my photography skills..

this is a pict taken with my 4th sis and
my junior.. kaiwen(same name as my little sis!)
we're waiting for the rest to assemble

aft tt pic on top..
i saw our ferry ride..
cute huh? i actualli tot is a pilot vessel..
cos of the gundu standing on the left..

finalli they assembled and we gt into the vessel..
saw the skipper.. who sat on top of the ferry..
gals who wanna sit on top.. don wear skirt
eveything will be expose!
haha

the pict i took on the beach..
the vessel is that far away frm us..

mi and my big sis lying on the beach..
cos we don wanna get wet..
but eventually she still went for the sea..

the beach is this beautiful..
im not kiddin..

and this crowded..
this is the place whr it will contain the least ppl alrdy...

at night at the 'galaxy of stars'
tot of drinkin.. but.. lect dere..
i kid with the lect abt treating us
rum with coke..
but he didnt... treated us soft drinks instead..

the last day pict.. if u notice sab..
she's beside the shuai ge..(the shuai-est amg all)
actuali im bside him.. but i keep my dist..
hahas..

the pict of us under the horses..

xue's wish.. hahas..

er.. this guy isnt a shuai ge..

jus that he look lk one of the dmr student..

thus.. im gg to bring back n show it to him..

nice chap w a nice name..

jun xuan.. if i didnt rmb wrongly

ok.. tis isnt my father or who.. jus a lect.. first lect i ever saw when im first enter poly..

cappy sahwan..

tt's all for my voy..

guess wad? i rcved email frm ah dam! hahas..

carine