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Friday, June 29, 2007; 11:06 PM
tdy is fri..
but it don feel lk one..
totally no weekend feelin lorr..
kinda sian..
no mood at all..
tdy MOS havina party..
wanna go de..
buden scare my ma nagg den end up here updatin blog.
so siann...
the farewell thingy is bad..
v rocky..
the prediction is still dere..
failure is the wrd..
but which n eva la..
even so i'll still have to do it..
mr kow still haven reply mi..
don he noe we are all waitin for his ans??
sua..
gee.. i think im gettin frm bad to worse..
even lun can lecture mi on it..
haiss..
nvm..
16 days more.. hopefully more freedom~
hee~
#carine#
1. here are the smiles for FAB.. =)) =D :) :D x) xD
2. wishin yaya all the best.. UNI startin soon le..
3. i MISS lao da~~ whr is he??? -no news at all..
Tuesday, June 26, 2007; 10:13 PM
this few days has been bad..
v bad..
we are still in cold war mood..
hais..
bet he has been hidin.. (appearin off9)
fine.. if thats wad he wants den jolly well..
don even have mood for my bday le..
old pals asked mi whr i wanna celeb..
told them anythin..
even agree on jap food..
im crazy..
k box?
tempted but no mood..
hopefully walter able to make it on thurs..
i nid to chill out..
or i'll go mad..
seems lk thinkin of tt stupid prob every min.
even when im smiling..
kaoz..
nxt wk.. tue or thurs.. farewell party..
seems so unstable..
lk wont happen lk tt..
let fate decide it ba..
fri.. wl's bday..
present haven buy..
but im already broke..
spend a bomb on my stuff jus now..
realised every thing is lackin..
hais..
even the shampoo is bullyin mi..
*sob ='(*
realli feel lk breakin down..
but b4 i can do tt..
the itp ppt..
otherwise i can sae farewell to my GPA..
forget everything?
Monday, June 25, 2007; 11:29 AM
Damned!
wasnt havin the time of my life..
went swimming ytd.
got darker a little..
but the swim wear.. ew!
yeaps..
reach do a little of my assign den I die flat..
how much energy do u nid to fight the water u noe?
when I cant even finish half a lap..
sian..
aniwaez
which lead to the reason I cant slp at night..
but of all things I went on9..
wl ask mi to decode his codes..
asked the dumb dumb who taught mi how..
end up in a quarrel..
i donno how.. don ask mi..
d2 jus flare up..
kaoz..
the way how he said it hit my hard on the head..
didnt slept well last night..
the thing keep on comin back to my head..
hais..
guess im too quarrelsome le..
mayb I shud even apologise..
but i donno wad i did wrong..
he is the one ho flared up..
siann..
back to my stonning..
maybe i shld stop being so emo abt everything..
Fate allow u to meet each other
So be gateful abt it
Saturday, June 23, 2007; 10:29 PM
hmmm~
went for steamboat dinner ytd..
to celeb geraldine bday..
hee..
enjoyed myself..
howeva..
felt a little extra..
dono why.. tho i still talk crap n ate happily..
but smth is missin..
hmm..
guess i nida get use to it..
for when school reopen it might get worse..
think i better join more club..
so at least i have some social life..
^ ^
somemore ended up owein someone money..
cos i forgot to pay..
haha..
rcvd msg on gg to st james pwr hse..
but kao..
im not old enuf to enter..
look like still have to wait for walter.. =)
ah dam got his postin..
joinin ship in july..
another departure..
siann..
i donno is it smth wrong of mi..
or its the things ard mi
makin mi feel so depressin..
Thursday, June 21, 2007; 11:45 PM
yoyoyo..
im not havin a good mood now..
feelin damn low..
1. tmr outing.. to go or not to go?
2. an attitude i hated most.. - totalli indifferent.. FINE!
3. im boredd..
i still cant make up my mind..
damn siann
part of mi realli wanna go..
the other sae stay at hm n watch ghost whisperer..
hais..
i REALLY donno..
aniwae updates on ytd..
went to JP met mr monk n wl for dinner..
yep.. (not met.. but rush)
haha..
walk big rounds n rounds of JP b4 Mr Poor decide to have pizza..
tok crap thru dinner..
esp mr monk..
too crappy..
ended the day with a can of 'anything'
had zapple..
but.. when i reach hm.. left the can on the table..
aft a shower..
ITS GONE..
kaoz..
must b my dad..
haiz..
gaboh my drink..
tdy.. would lk to thank YAYA for the jeans..
lk it v much tho its long..
or let sae im short?
lol..
k la.. i end here..
tmr still have to finish my crew agreement article..
zzz..
so long~
its not as if im fed up with u..
but i hate the attitude in ur voice..
Wednesday, June 20, 2007; 11:56 AM
woa....
im tired!!!
v v tired..
stayed up till 1 plus..
haha..
talked to Gerald..
all crap..
but the fact is tt i'm rushin my assign for las wk.
so.. thnx dude..
another guy i wanna thank..
FABIAN..
haha.. gave mi a mornin call tdy..
but sry to disappoint..
i went back to slp..
hahaha..
too tired..
so almost late..
worst is tt..
i had bad nightmare aft i went back to slp.
kaoz..
retribution..
even cried in it..
2nd time in my life..
scary..
now im havin prob w my stomach..
feel lk vomittin..
ate too full i guess..
worst..
sore throat~
irritatin..
k..
get back to work if not l8r not able to leave in time to meet the guys for lunch..
so long..
dealing w mum..
do i have a money face look?
whr r u rachel??
GOOD LUCK WALTER for ur exam..
Sunday, June 17, 2007; 12:43 AM
another new day..
as bad as the rest..
scald my hand tdy..
made mi come back to earth suddenly..
realized im lk zombie nowadays.
no life..
i’m such a difficult person understand.
tt tym I told someone.
‘things will nv be the same anymore’
wad I was thinking is tt the way he treat mi will b diff..
but he tot I refuse to acknowledge him anymore..
nvm i’ll see wad I can do..
wound will need time to heal too
tho it will leave some scars..
communicating with ppl seems difficult too..
i don seems to b able to click w ppl anymore..
more lk alien lehh..
but am v glad tt pp lard mi are livin happily..
i mean majority.
it wont b tt hard to put a smile on ur face.
or lifting ur feelin by a little.
DTTM—is a good wrd..
thou mani wrd refuse to admit tt..
but its true..
why cant we b lk kids..
gullible
so u wud make things v simple..
at least once in a while to make urself happier.
believed tt life wud b lk the national stadium.
come to an end..
but it has its glorious times before..
n tt’s wad it matters..
Everything will return to wad u wan it to b..
If u believe in it..
Friday, June 15, 2007; 11:45 PM
HAPPY B’DAY 4 JIE!!!
Another 18 de..
Hahaa.. mus grow up le wor..
Don make mi feel soo old..
hee
well.. didn’t manage to celeb w her..
but..
she’ll enjoy herself aniwae..
hmm..
realize smth..
in btw frens n the person u love..
who will u choose?
I bet lots wud choose the person they love ba..
but not mi..
frankly..
to mi.. as long as my frens nid mi I’ll b dere.. so.. bf..
haha
im sry!
hee..
unfortunately..
some ppl chose love over frens..
u think they will regret?
think will.. cos..
the person being loved is nt worth it..
pardon mi for sayin tt..
didn’t sae anything cos mood is no good le..
don wanna cause more trouble than already had..
One big headache caused by ryan..
of all time ask mi tt stupid qn..
now I donno wad to do le la.
to go or not to..
mayb I shud jus wait.. at least till july over?
but the temptation is overbearing..
kaoz..
den I’ll have to bear..
u noe how it feels when the rain came
n no one bother to care abt u?
Monday, June 11, 2007; 12:56 PM
its lk another 40 mins b4 lunch..
but i feel lk faintin le..
due to hunger and tiredness..
must been due to stayin up too late tis few days..
realli bad ar..
0.0-->those pair of eyes gettin worst le..
HAIS..
im gg to promise myself..
have to slp early le..
unless sat n fri?
haha..
darn the stupid hair really hard to handle..
i wonder do i realli nid to get wax..
kao.. er xin lorr..
those wax.. haha..
colleaguea all ask mi abt my hair..
tsk tsk..
one jus comment..
'mei mei wad happen to ur hair? not long not short'
see!!!
disaster ar..
l8r meetin long ge.
more comment abt it le la..
realli feel lk shavin den put a wig..
tt's better u noe..
lk rap in shrek.. wahahahahaha..
i rcvd a surprise in the morning..
guess wad?!
a sms from LAO DA!!
woo..
when i on the hp i was thinkin impossible for anyone to sms mi de
but god noes..
i rcv his sms.. reportin his position..
indonesia now!!
gg to ITALY..
can u believe it?
haiz..
told mi he jus finish keepin watch for pirates..
haha..
he look lk one himself..
it might end up ppl mistakin he's part of the pirate den the one to keep watch for them lorr..
hee..
lunch time finally..
another 5 more hrs.. so long~
i love to live in fairy tales..
they always end with happily ever after...
heyy..
went bugis shopping on sat..
nt as bad as i tot..
early in the morn
watched pokemon..
but i was in a helf aslp mode..
haha..
den freshen up.. preparin to go out..
dad called mi to go hm earlier cos mama havun fever..
woo..
i was thinkin of skippin tis trip..
but they've been plannin to go for a v long time..
if i ps..
haha..
so i decide to go..
but nt for long..
hee..
had kfc..
den went into shoppin mode..
was walkin ard..
the first person to start takin out walet is..
THAYA..
haha... she realli nid clothes for her U..
den they cont to buy their stuff..
the most challengin is tt..
i'm not only the watchdog..
im a hanger..
haha..
helped yaya to take all her stuff when she go try her clothes.
den finalli saw smth we 3 shared the same view tt is nice..
a shirt..
i finally open my wallet..
not bad la.. its a brwn shirt den got a white heart..
big thing is t.. when i reach hm.. i find it too tight..
haha..
guess im too fat..
im passin it over to my dear sis..
she look nicer in it..
aniwae i oso got myself a bag..
since one of the capt lauf at mi for bringin my sling bag to wrk..
hw cruel can life b??
haiz..
hope he don comment on this one..
my mum sae too big..
lk tt den good ma..
wadeva things oso can throw in..
haha..
tdy.. or let sae sunday..
did smth i realli regretted..
cut my hair..
n it isnt smth asked for..
i tot of backin out..
but my mum alrdy changed..
determined to pull mi out for hair removin..
kao.. the hair style..
realli tok kong..
er xin ar..
made mi look bigger than i alrdy was..
damn sad..
3 choices left..
1. keep myself indoor for 2 mths..
2. but a cap or hat..
3. style it lk i nv did it b4..
tsktsk.. i think one more choice..
cry n leave it as it is..
hopefully no one comment it tmr..
none of my clothes suits my hair..
siann..
runnin away frm prob seems to b a good way to mi now..
Friday, June 08, 2007; 10:28 PM
hmmm...
im bored..
sian..
can u believe it?
its a fri n im here moaning abt my boredom..
kaoz..feel lk gg out lehh
thou its abt 8 plus le..
but i still wanna go out..
doubt no
one free to acc aniwae..
so.. im stuck...
no choice..
nth i can do either..
tdy is a day which i call as borrin..
even at office im bored..
realli bored..
tmr gg bugis..
shopping..
tt wrd sound scary u noe..
most prob i'll b standin outside waitin for gals agn..
haiz..
unless i found smth i wanna get..
hopefully..
but broke oso..
realli doubt my luck
haha..
finalli i did wad i have been wantin to do.
but the aftermath is terrible..
did not get wad i wish..
thus i still ended up back to square one..
kaoz..
stupid larr..
i realli got tired of all these..
im sick totally sick..
im gg ignore all these stupid stuff.
for now, as well as the future..
don ask mi wad happen..
i donno..i realli don..
Thursday, June 07, 2007; 11:10 AM
i'm tired..
v v tired..
slept v v late night
abt 3..
acc fren study for bike mock test..
so jealous..
i wanna take too..
but my mum..
aggr...
bike is so fun...
but why cnnt??
whyyyyyy??
HAIZ..
consider the factor tt bike is cheaper,
its more mobile,
n faster..
why cant she allow mi to learn tt??
i noe i noe.. dangerous..
but c'mon who sae drivin a car is not dangerous..
fed up la~~
hmm.. drinkin coffee now..
hopin to keep awake..
ytd got effect.. tdy no longer..
only part is the bitterness tt make mi a awake a little
otherwise no effect at all..
ive been wantin to ask him a qn..
i nv noe how to open my mouth..
ever since the day i slipped tt stupid thing out of my mouth
ive been regrettin tt..
promised tt i'll nv sae those thing agn.. yet..
hais..
im being v careless tis few days..
lost my ez link card AGN!!
damn..
n worst.. cant find my keys tis morn..
omg omg..
wth lor..
basted...
k la.. enuf of grumblin..
back to work..
an empty heart filled w sorrows n boredom..
Monday, June 04, 2007; 1:20 AM
i'll be quick with this post.
b4 my batt went out..
aniwae.. shrek 3 was fantastic..
mayb cos i lorve animation ba..
i love the babies!!
lol..
aniwae..
i realised im quite down tis few days..
cant b help..
but aft the 2 hr talk till 3 am last night..
i felt better..
he may not b the guy i can fall easily for..
but he realli made mi feel realli special..
and to mi.. looks isnt everything..
feelin is..
but im hating him for leavin mi n havin fun oversea now..
grr..
jkjk..
all the best to him.. =)
youinfluencemiineveryway..=)
long ge.. don think too much!!
Sunday, June 03, 2007; 12:11 AM
tdy was quite a tiring day..
spend my morning doin hse wk
den rush to PM to buy honey lemon..(v nice!)
was late..
so i rush to giv long ge his share..
cos told mi sick for 1 mth le..
somemore no voice lk tt..
lol..
den i rush to take train go mama dere..
kaoz.. den realised tt im hungry..
haven had anithing..
lol
dropped by the bakery to buy bread..
realised how poor i am..
tsk..
den do all the admin wrk..
free labor..
my poor mama lk gg to faint le..
hee.. see i so fillal..
k la..
v late.. tmr gg for sherek 3!!
HAPPY BDAY DARYL..
19 seems so old for u..
lol..
since u said the past..
den i'll have no choice but to leave it tt way..
Friday, June 01, 2007; 3:09 PM
im totalli pissed of..
wad the prob w tt stupid lady?
jus a signature..
does it kill to jus sign n fax back..
don even wanna use a new form..
den complain so much..
made it seems to b my fault..
my good mood a moment is totalli destroyed..
damned..
im tired..
v tired..
zzz..
barely can open my eyes..
hais..
saddist..
ytd slpt at 2 plus..
woke up at 6 plus..
shldnt b on9 till tt late..
but..
no pt regretin right?
watched spiddy 3 last night till 11 plus nearly 12..
not bad.. other than the seat i've got.. first 2 row...
zzz..
otherwise the show.. 3.5 out of 5?
not as gd as i hoped.. but story line still ok..
but damn..
my stupid sis still comment so much...
esp on wad i did during the movie...
den reach hm meeting w mama till almost one..
den don feel lk slpin den on9..
tot of slpin at 130..
but exceed it..
n end up lk zombie tdy..
kaos..
wads worst.. my boss isnt in!!
on top of it..
my wrk cnnt open.. i did it on another soft ware..
but hor came to wrk..
the stupid file wouldnt burge..
great..
there goes my fri..
how bad my day gg to be??
lost n slpy..
October 2006