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Thursday, November 30, 2006; 12:30 PM

d0wn n d0wn int0 tHe drAin..

yoyo!!
im here to blogg.. hmm.. life.. gettin a little frustratinhere n there.. yep.. think i'm becomin more n more like a 'relationship'.. i hate it when both my heart n braincant coodrdinate tgt.. haiz.. its quite saddenin u noe.. i hate to reject n see ppl rejectin or rejected. yup although i also tell my kor.. he better giv up le.. don wann giv him too much false hope.. but mayb it's because of my tempper nowaday.. this tempers are blockin my sight to see properly or let sae think clearly..

haha.. ytd work eos.. till almost 1.. dots.. hee.. but realli.. really giddy n sick ytd.. luckily got ryan to peh mi sms.. hee.. donno wad crap i tok to him also.. now he ask mi i also gong gong de.. worst thing.. ytd someone sms mi to go on9.. i tot tt person wan mi to help him chk smth.. so i direct tt guy to another person.. dots.. but didnt realise tt he actualli wanna tok to mi.. lol.. ZZz.. hee.. no choice as i said im realli tired.. lol...

felt a little guilty now.. cos donno how tt guy doin liao.. hais.. hate it when i feel so helpless esp when my phone gg to flat le.. sob.. of cos not b cos of her i feel so bad but.. i feel tt as a fren i shld help tt guy who realli nid some consolence u noe?? hmm.. nvm... hopefully i can dig smth out of someone heh heh.. woo.. n jus now.. joseph(aka goofy) passed mi the pict.. aggr.. the pict look a little too obscene.. lol.. yep.. er xin la.. see le wanna vomit.. lol..

haiz.. y tt guy still haven come!!! hais... almost lesson time le.. aggr.. tired.. ZzZ.. 4 hrs for a gal who developin is not enuf u noe!! but no choice i shld noe the consequences when i decide to work.. heee.. bleah!!!

Tuesday, November 28, 2006; 7:46 PM

rain.. rAin.. n RaIn..

^ ^ today.. fantastic.. cos my sms gg to burst le.. siann.. worst is all boys.. dots.. im gettin popular?.. no lorr... im jus b i'm in demand.. due to the reason tt i tok crap.. haha.. the ppl who cos my sms are.. one frm my class n 3 frm work..(includ my kor..) aggr.. siann

boorrring.. monday nana bday.. we r plannin smth.. wad is it? i oso not reali sure.. kinda complicated.. wan to invite ani guys? who? donno.. hais.. cos i think nana would be happier to see guys attendin her bday.. bu realli which guy would wanna attend tt function.. mingyi mayb.. but if no guys gg.. doubt he gg.. hmm.. edwin??? aggr.. tt one worst don nid to sae.. ZZZ..

aggrr.. nvm.. i'll find out who's the lucky few.. hahass..

christmas.. comin le.. shitter.. donno wad to get for the gals n bros sia.. budget sia.. aniwae.. i set aside abt 80 plus for pressie.. can u believe it?? hais.. im broke tis time.. but nvm... as long as a smile on the face im satisfied.. ><>

Monday, November 27, 2006; 5:24 PM

*/ l0rVe /*

wee.. life gettin a little guai guai.. guess i've been pretty fierce this few days.. not realli angry abt stuff.. but i think i look a little frightful to others.. mayb its cos of my fed up mood..

yep.. hopefully i get better.. on sat already sort of 'quarrel' w my kor le.. donno how it actualli happen but it jus happened.. siann.. tdy did smth wrong tt i donno.. cos a guy volunteer to b in my acc grp.. but without 2nd tot i sae okie nv tot tt my sisters would object it.. but aniwae.. i promise if he don do it den i'll do double lorr.. hopefulli tt guy wont let mi down.. i mean in terms of the work la.. don anihow think! hee..

here smth to share when i receive frm a mail..
There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend. One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marryme?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just take care of my eyes dear."

yup this is the one.. realli touchin.. i hate ppl who r like tt gal.. but unfortunately.. lots of ppl are jus like her.. normally look at things on the surface n nv noe who realli sacrifice.. by havin a guy not 'xian qi' tt i'm blind im already happy n satisfied w it.. n yet tt guy.. gave his eyes to mi.. gee i'll kill myself for takin a pair of eyes who belong to the one i love.. oh man.. im gettin too emotional over this.. got to go! hope everyone would cherish the love ard them.. n enjoy every moment of it.. =)

Friday, November 24, 2006; 2:10 PM

//rAinzz..//

^ ^ tdy had fun learnin abt the eqpt on board the life raft and life (er.. i go see.. waitt..) oh.. boat.. hahas.. the lect show us the food ration(expiry 5 yrs frm manu date, 10thousnd kj person) hmm.. interestin.. every thing on board is so basic.. i wonder whr got place for water tank on life boat.. hee.. den i saw someone kajiao my jie den i suddenly shout the name n tt person jump.. haha.. was feelin v cold in the rm.. zizzy volunteer to lend mi his jacket.. er rejected cos viggy sae his jacket 7 days a wk don nid to wash de haha.. aniwae took mingyi's (w/o permission but he didnt sae anything.. lol)

aft pract, we had tutorial (zzz) haha.. hmm finished battlin w my tiredness.. the gals stuck there n try trey's pullover.. haha.. i oso buyin.. so happy.. nv own a pull over b4.. even geraldine oso buyin.. hahas..*bleah* aft the gals tried out.. we went out. suddenli xue shouted.. cos a red ant bite her.. omg.. tt ant was sooo big.. n i noe how it feels cos got kena b4.. damn pain de lor.. siann..

then i er went separated way cos the gals wanna go back to sch.. n mi.. don wan go back n don wan go home.. so.. made a bad choice to follow the boys to clementi to play.. was rainin heavily.. had fun runnin in the rain with them but was realli realli wet.. haas.. hmm.. let's sae we went n they play n i see.. siann dota leh.. totalli bo liao lor.. den the edwin gong gong de.. played 4 time onli.. haha.. if i play i'll b ready to get trash.. but i realli feel like playin... only if someone is patient to teach mi.. otherwise.. no wae... my 'zhi zun xin' too strong le.. don like them to lauf at mi.. haa.. but didnt play aniwae cos they were like lost in cyber wrld.. spend my time in kfc eatin n readin comics.. haha.. think until now they still there stuck.. hee.. heck la.. next time i wont join them le.. i'll b cleverer next time.. ^^

jus rmb i got my result.. quite satisfyin except the nav saf.. totalli disgustin.. cos.. i think i scrip thru... think im gg to talk to chit htwe abt it agn.. cos the guys in my class.. seems like they realli dislike him. always skipped his class.. terrible.. hmm.. not wrkin today..
but i think im gg to work next fri.. cos realli siann.. nth to do like tt.. haha.. so whoeva wanna date mi tell mi b4 sat(11pm) otherwise.. i'll b v v [ :( ] hmm.. think i'll stop here le.. wonder tis christmas will i b alone agn..*sob*

Thursday, November 23, 2006; 12:36 PM

::low... n down...::

currently.. im in sch with my grp.. helpin ah joo with her 'access' hee^^--actually i also gong gong abt it.. got something wrong jus now..

hais.. currently v depress.. not abt relationship or wadeva but my work and my mum..(*shyt kor sms le..*) ytd reach hm abt 10 like tt then was packin my stuff den went for shower when i finish mum's home.. yea.. i walk ard the hse n see anything to help out with.. realise nth much.. den i blow my hair le den go bed.. by then mum was in the bath doin some stuff.. donno wad.. aniwae..when i half aslp le den she tok to mi which i donno wad she realli saein but anywae was realli tired aft wrk..

think she tokin to mi abt cscc camp on 8-10 dec which i donno wanna go or not leh.. haven been to any camp for sometime le.. so was thinkin i might wanna go n see wads new.. hmm.. ask her whether am i allow to go.. she like don let like tt leh.. hais.. so sian.. den now she sent sms to mi sae i realli tt not responsible like tt.. but hey c'mon how old am i le.. i nid to have some freedom on wad i do.. its not like wad la.. but the thing is smth she didnt realise she's holdin us a little to firm although she tot she didnt.. howeva cant realli blame her.. smtimes it got to do w my dad.. think he's a little too protective.. wad cannot stay late or wad.. hey c'mon not as if i always stay out late.. the onli time i realli saty out late is when im out to work lor.. hais.. don plus the chalet and festival celebrating thingy... back to the sms le.. she sae she wanna giv up on us le.. eh.. wad wrong i did again? if i don bother abt her.. do i bother to tell her abt the camp n askin her consent..haiz.. realli donno woman la.. siann..

wad's worst is next wk.. can die la.. my schedule for wed is frm 3 to 12.. cfm will get scolded de.. cos next dae 8 am lehh.. walao.. realli got so much headache.. my hair cfm gg white le.. sob...
k stop here.. feelin better aft vomitin le.. but i hope when i get hm.. nth's gg to happen cos at hm now onli got me.. if anione to get bombed.. it will b me.. -.-ll

Monday, November 20, 2006; 5:52 PM

Step up, step down..

haas.. tdy is a v not-bad day for mi.. although im pacing here n there.. haha..

reason for good day..
-no account lesson *phew*
-went for movie!!
step up is a v nice movie sort of comedy cum drama n of cos dancing...
the male lead---*shuai!*
the female lead-- *sweet* ahhh
hais.. sob.. my life how come not as nice as them..
*cough* okie bback to tdy
-got two mr. nice pei us hee
was shock tt they wanna go.. i was there gigglin like siao when i noe it `lol`

resons for bad day
-nth to do aft gems so went hm
-which bring mi to the fact tt im late which cause the 2 pair of rubber duckies waiting for mi..
-sort of cause mingyi to like not able to join us.. told him too late..
-got v jealous of the leads
-it pouring heavily now!!

haha.. yep tt's how my day went.. hee.. but overall its not tt bad la..
point of the dae is..

Definition of Bf...
-a recognised figure in ur heart; who
*u care for
*u wld share ur up n down with
*u wld think every min of
*u will feel comfortaable with
*will noe wad u thinkin
*n able to coordinate well with..

yup tt is it! *cheers*

Friday, November 17, 2006; 10:46 PM

==shoppin==

hey!!! exam finalli over le.. tdy paper frm 8-9 plus.. i tot will till 11 cos got pract ma.. haha.. fortunately.. cancelled.. wahaha..

the 5 sis took bus to clementi.. nana got to go first.. got her own activity.. siann.. nvm.. the 4 sisters con't their journey to.. food.. wahaha.. aniwae.. had mee pok, carrotcake, and er.. porridge.. haha.. aniwae.. aft tt.. wen sae.. v tired don wanna go.. den we sae okie lor.. drop us at bugis..

the 3 sis went walkin ard bugis.. walk n walk.. 1 purpose in the mind.. find present!! walk ar walk.. found sth.. they sae.. rine go try.. er.. dots.. i not use to tt lor.. whr got see mi in tt de.. *freak* come out they end up saein hey.. suit u lehh.. dots.. who's pressie are we buyin for!! okie.. i skipped wil pressie.. er.. hmm.. nth to sae.. onli 3 *du du* de standin outside shop until the keeper oso pek chek.. cos wad colour he wear realli chim la.. okie finalli finish.. den xue got tired.. mi sab walk her to train den she sae shit.. didnt buy pressie for po zi.. den here we go.. but cant find anithing.. dots.. nv walk her down again..

left 2 gong gong de.. walkin in bugis.. walked n see top.. hais.. (realli nice sia.. feelin like buyin some skirt or top to wear lor.. but nvm CONTROL) hahas.. aniwae.. finalli bought sth for the dae other than food.. haha.. watch.. not bad.. quite nice.. hee.. sab jie.. stand there choose watch abt 20-30 mins sia.. but finalli decided sth tt i was shocked.. haha.. green suit her leh.. hee

hais.. on wae home went to jp w ma.. bought piggy bank.. damn cute.. tom n jerry den lol.. hais.. now tokin crap with lao da.. and waitin for sab to chiong on9... lala~~

Wednesday, November 15, 2006; 3:19 PM

~shhh~

hmm..
this will b a short entry.. gg to study for tmr paper..

hmm.. look like everthing is gg fine.. or shld b.. except my nav.. think its a goner.. hahas..
otherwise its ok i think...

cindy like a little unstable le.. u noe like those atom which is unstable which might explode anitime de.. im a little afraid sia..
guess she's a little too stress.. nid to cool her down..

but nvm.. two more paper den everything's goin to b fine.. haha.. so happi.. ^ ^

1 more thing.. i promise my fren for the love entries.. have to start thinkin on wad to write le.. complicated.. and the class tee.. hahas.. nid to think le.. hehes.. since we started this.. im gg to make sure we get the shirt.. im v determine now!!

Friday, November 10, 2006; 12:07 PM

//communication breakdown//

okie.. now the air is cleared.. my gm exaggerated... aggr.. my mum wasnt quarrelin w my dad abt the issue.. instead is b cos she cant slp.. wad the hell.. lidat oso can..

*sigh* luckily not that issue.. but hopefully nth more 'interestin' come out.. think i tok a lot of crap at 3 w my sab jie.. all crap.. like as if by tellin her everything would change the fact like tt(not in a million yr.. unless sth miracle happen).. but not possible.. cos as i said.. miracle.. they don jus happen de.. u noe.. but i feel better.. one more person who noe my stupid incident..

okie.. tdy discussion for frtlog is weird.. haha.. like nth is discuss like tt.. haha.. but one thing i rmb stock is = to inventories for the time being in this module.. haha.. actualli is till don get it.. but nvm.. no point ponderin.. must start studyin le.. think i get my stuff all done liao.. l8r ma they all gg for movie.. doubt i'll b gg.. cos.. i haven realli touch my books whr other have finish how mani module le..(right?)

hmm..
after my exam im gg to conc on my relationship w ppl.. nid to do sth n reflection on it.. otherwise.. im gettin from bad to worst.. okie la.. i stop here.. been here v long le.. haha.. ciaoz..

Thursday, November 09, 2006; 9:06 AM

%#@complication%#@

hmm.. going to make one post before i go to work..

ytd.. big riot.. early noe all shut mouth n not tok.. b cos of my sis's stupid bf.. my parent quarrelled.. woo.. that sux.. actualli if it was mi who have a bf.. bet there wont b ani commotion.. cos my work is fairly good.. n they complained that my sis result were due to tt.. aggr.. isit?

i donno..

but i doubt so..

i donno la.. but if im her i would sae no too.. hais.. this is realli stress u have to put urself in everyone's shoes.. aggr..think im gg to act blur on this issue.. let them come up w their own compromises.. like boon leong sae.. i mus have patience.. too gan chiong might not b a good thing(wad i concluded)..

hais.. whenever.. i sae i wld forget.. he would appear de.. sux! okie nvm.. i still haven give up.. think time will prove everything n im sure i'll succeed de..

stupid marine eng until now haven allow acess to us.. tmr gg b deadline le.. sux!!! hmm.. elearnin left w stupid gems n stupid eng plus its practical... aggr.. gg to pia again.. actualli shld b ez other than the fact that i noe nth abt enginneerin.. i realise it when i open the note.. guess it mus b due to too mani time late for tt class.. hmm.. gt to run le... buaiz.. ZzZ

Wednesday, November 08, 2006; 3:48 AM

^stupid^

now is 3.42 in the morning.. hee.. not that i cant slp.. in fact its because im too tired tt y i fell aslp when im suppose to chiong my elearning.. haha.. but the sad thing is instead of doin im here again.. aggr.. this thing is sure addictive.. bleah..

hmm got into my sis blog le.. shiittt.. jus as i tot.. she got a boy fren.. hmm.. gg to hit her yr book l8r.. see my prespective sis in law is who.. okok.. i don even have one.. but tt doesnt mean i disapprove it.. wahaha..

haiz.. wandan le.. think i'm addicted to the song oso.. cant stop listenin to it.. although tis has always been my fav.. tt y i intro it to them.. hmm.. till the end is another best de.. otherwise tis back to SHE n Westlife.. wahahaa..

went to vivo jus now.. okie la.. tt place not bad la.. everything new... not as big as i imagine it.. but my kor sae ' it's the biggest in singapore le'.. okie.. i wasnt so sure abt it.. but mayb it is.. cos my leg turn jelly before we shop every single corner.. wadis th ebest part of vivo.. wad i wld sae is the open air part! hiong.. v nice.. u get to see the sea=), sentosa, pooln kids?! haha.. watched death note.. not bad.. thou i noe the story plot le.. hahaz.. lookin fwd for deathnote2.. hope it come soon.. gagaag.. on the way back.. kor tok crap.. ask mi abt 'tt'.. realli decided it shld end le.. otherwise i'll remain in this state n nid to acc kor out for the rest of my life..(cant blame mi.. he's jus too good shopper le) heez!

k la k la.. wish mi good luck in handlin everything from now on.. im all alone le..
aggr JiA yOu!! dots.. zhi high in the mornin.. *4am, pending..* i nid time..

Tuesday, November 07, 2006; 10:00 AM

*-dead-*

hmm.. okie we are one dae behind my 'interestin' life..

ytd jammin session didnt go well.. not tt i nv predicted but.. its realli bad.. hard to forget.. haiz.. i hate to admit.. its my fault for not being patient enuf.. however, i can see hope are all pinned on the singer himself... if i don do my best might b too disappointin.. hmm.. wad was realli big prob is the monotone.. no expression at all.. cant blame him but he realli didnt experience it before.. wad can i do? nth.. all my frens sae 'make him fall in love la' ya right.. if its so easy..

To make someone fall in love
1. someone he likes
2. he wan or not..

ok.. point no. 1 is already so hard.. find who?? i was suppose to b a teacher not his confinate.. even if i am.. i wouldnt noe.. his thinkin is hard to noe.. forget it.. don wanna bother le.. bet they wont ask mi back aniwae..

well.. elearnin wk le.. totalli sux.. lots of assign.. the lect donno wad is exam ar.. so mani assign how to study for next wk exam.. think they tot we are immortal.. terrible.. luckily one of the big burden itsb is finish.. otherwise i'll realli break down..

jie they all come back le.. haa.. look v happy.. but did anione notice abt lina? she look as if she's left out.. hate to sae.. but i notice it.. been to her blog.. said tt she hasn't been tokin to sab n xue.. hmm.. wonder wad's the prob..

bdae again.. hmm.. they sae surprise.. i wonder wad they intendin to do.. haa.. mayb it will end up tt im gg to b the one to plan again.. hahas..

on sundae received msg from mx.. said that she wanna quit rp n join nursing in np.. wad a 'great' idea.. not as if im disencouragin her.. but the thing is if u join sth u nv like there's no future.. hopin to find sth tt suit her more.. hmm.. mayb rp is not a good place for ppl like us.. esp when i heard PBL i already made up my mind rp is not a place to mi.. *scary*

Evaluation...
1. wish zizy all the best..
2. startin frm tonight im gg to pia my elearnin again..
3. wishin my dear lia a happi bdae
4. hope mx can think properly before decidin wad she wanna do..
5. nth happenin to nana..

Friday, November 03, 2006; 3:56 PM

+ jetty jump +

heez.. today we had our Jetty jump..
it was.. FUN!! hee..
let mi describe the feelin.. hmm.. when i was on the platform.. i was.. shiverin cos its realli high n we r jumpin into the sea water not swimmin pool water.. aggr.. hee the lecturer was there to tell mi cross my hand across my chest breathe in hold ur nose n cover ur mouth look infront at the blue ship n.. JUMP!!

after i jump, the feelin is like floatin in the air.. for a moment i was wonderin why i haven reach the water, the next moment i know i was splash! in the salty water.. yuck! but it was fun.. we were told to swin/paddle towards the life raft.. haa.. initialli i tot im dead cos i don realli noe how to swim.. but manage to grab a few of the gals into the raft before enterin.. it was stuffy n the raft but got the feelin of water bed.. hee..

next event.. jump out of the raft.. free n ez.. haa.. jie keep on lyin on the water.. nid to pull her n likai here n there.. haa.. hais.. such a big man le still donno how to swim.. hee.. looked at our buddy class jump.. and saw tis guy damn cute de.. the one n onli guy i saw who hold the railin n don dare to jump.. haa.. okie.. cnnt lauf.. ^ ^

hais.. now realli tired le.. think l8r will b like dead person gg to work.. haa.. but i have fun n is satisfied.. kor sae gg to visit mi donno true a not *in doubt* haa.. but partialli m tired cos i redo my blog.. now nicer le right.. i mean it reflect more of mi le.. at least.. but i don wan mani ppl noe this time.. esp those who will ka jiao de.. *stalker* hmm look like xue jie jie might fall for ah boon kor kor.. haha.. cos ah boon realli v caring towards her tdy.. hais.. kelian de zzc kor kor no chance le.. ah boon more ti tia.. hee

hmm.. mon gg to sch to do fire wrks n catch up w my elearnin assign.. ya n oso teach ppl sing.. actualli i doubt i can make it lor.. im a bad singer myself.. somemore is teach him.. doubt he will open his mouth de.. don wanna flare up with him oso.. hais.. siann.. tue gg to vivo watch death note with kor.. wed nid to work plus conversation with chit htwe.. thurs n so on.. no plan but think nid to work plus study.. hais.. examsss.....