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Wednesday, May 30, 2007; 4:47 PM

ZZZ~~
*snore*
im so tired..
tired till the extend tt i almost fell walkin..
my knee suddenly go weak..
kaoz.. scare mi sia..

didnt realli slpt well at ah ma hse..
but luckily manage to get a little..
which is better than nothing..
=)

hmm..
listenin to FM now..
the phrase 'do u believe in love in first sight'
is smth realli interestin..
wonderin if u believe??
some ppl sae yes while others no
to me.. i believe in it..
but i noe it will nv happen to mi..
hee.. cos i don trust ppl easily..
but such cases happen frequently...
n of cos is v romantic..
hee..okok(maybe on tv la.. =))

jus came back frm raffles..
woa.. nice...
i mean things in the shop...
kaoz.. first time there..
haha..
think will go back there agnn..
aft paychk.. xP

his attitude bothered mi nowadays..
we r no longer we are use to b..
that's true.. n it will nv return..
aniwae... its alright..
since i lost so many frens..
one more shld not b a prob..
jus hope he don regret it..
cos if i mean it.. i realli mean it tis time..

still troubled over my study assign.. aggr..
if i don get it this wk.. im realli doom..
hais..
stupid itp..
i don even have time to do my own work..
i mean weekly assignment..
hais.. all to blame mi..
who ask mi..
wanna help them rush the cert..
so it wont b as tall as mi..
bo liao..

i refuse to noe how fortunate i m..
cos i grumble too much..

*cut my hair or not??

Tuesday, May 29, 2007; 9:56 AM

hello ppl..
hahaha
ok..
use my real mood to tok..
damn tired ar!!
really v panda now lorr.
big circles ard eyes.. 0.0
imagine tt..
hahaa..
but im happy thou..
got a new lappy n have been on9 till 12-1
haha..

did smth real bad thou..
tt day.. i tapped on someone wireless..
haha.. until now im still guilty..
aggr nvm la..
heee..
bad thing abt it..
no microsoft office..
v shit lorr.. nid to hand in my 3 wks assign by fri..
yet.. no wrds how to do??
kao feel lk d/l frm webbie..
but horr..
i think 'll feel guilty for the rest of my life..
damnn..

sian l8r gg ah ma hse.. i'll die there man..
realli nth to do.. wanna bring my lappy there..
but.. no modem oso.. somemore nida bring my lap to wrk..
grr..
siann...
k la.. enuf time of spendin on my personal stuff..

im confuse whether are we still the same as b4..

Friday, May 25, 2007; 9:34 AM

nth much to update..
its been dull..
filled w boring stuff..
but I wanna make a stand here…
I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFREN
esp to my dear mother..
(tho she wont b reading tis..)
but I really hate ppl sae I have one when I really DO NOT have one..
damn..
totally sick of it..

howeva.. would like to wish my 4 jie all the best
got into a r/l le..
haha..
hmm.. wonder tt guy shuai ma?
Haha.. kk..
stop teasing her le. =P

so any of my jie im gg to b a bridesmaid..
im booking tt position..
not afraid of the stupid superstitious
sayin tt..
if u b a bridesmaid for donno how mani time u’ll b condemn to b single foreva
haha.. even if I don im still single..
zzz…
since I got 6 sisters!
Woa! Omg.. I gg to wear tt bride maid grown for 6 times!!!
sia la..
so cool…><
haha..

hmm.. enuf of day dreamin..
back to work.. hahas..
got my new lappy..
but.. I think I got prob operating it..
hahaz..

im brute!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007; 2:10 PM

sry..
for my blog tdy..
its not mean for ani ppl whose on cloud nine..

I don believe tt such cruel n heartless ppl exist..
Damn.. tt person can still think of self when the partner who spend 10 over yr with is on hospital bed.
Shit tt person..
totally.. aggr.. I donno wad to sae le..
its beyond word man..
n still can describe him until as if he’s gg to die.. when I saw him..
ya he look lk he has breathin difficulty but not to the extend of dying yet.
ridiculous..
hais.. how come ppl can be so heartless to this extend..

damn..
tis morning I couldn’t believe who smsed mi.
I tot ah long or xue would reply my sms..
but I saw mr D name?!
wad the hell..
he lost contact mi since he left sch..
n now..
stupidly ask mi..
‘still rmb me?’
kao…
he can well be sure I’ll nv forget him even when im dead..
all he has done..
all the pain he has caused..
f* off..
damn it..
ask him wad he wan.. told mi nth..
can u believe it..
all this while.. not even a hi frm him
now.. he’s sayin tt saw my name in his phone bk..
tt y sms mi.. wad a crap reason..
he better ass off**

ggrr..
tot im so free to entertain him??
damn..

finish ventin le..
las thing..
I realize I hate gals who skin as thick as dictionary..
its not as if u’re the only gal who has 2 guys after u..
n two timing is so NOT funny..

*pissed*

Monday, May 21, 2007; 1:36 PM

aft thinkin..

i decide to add one more entry..

since im havin lunch alone in this office.

facing the com agn..

haha..

look lk the com has become my fren..

tsk..

realise smth..

when u grow up..

u'll face lots of things u literalli hate it..

theres lots of obstacles for u to face..

often hinder u frm movin fwd..

i missed the times of gullibility(if theres this wrd..)

thou gullible n easily cheated..

u live a more carefree life den this..

no hate is within u..

hais..

at tt time we wont b tt demandin..

everydae is a brand new sunshine for us..

ok..

i lost my appetite agn..

zzz..

early noe i cook cup noodles can le..

didnt even finish half of the rice..

disgusting..

am i suppose to wait for..

hmm..
tons of stuff happened..
let start on the overall..
helped mikey w all his prob..
ok.. partially.. I don wanna do anything w the gal part..
but his bro.. yep..
at least crease the bit of fire..
n guess wad..
tis time I didn’t kena myself..
haha.. so happy..

fri..
had dinner w peng n adam..
at.. vivo’s swensen..
haha..
tasted the choc fondue..
nice!
haha..
but.. smth is wrong I only pay 15..
impossible lorr..
based on my appetite..
tsk tsk.. nvm.. i’ll pay him back.. =)
went to the roof..
woo..
bring back memories..
thou sad but nice..
created new as well..

sat..
gp admitted into hospital..
yep.. went to see him in the middle of the night..
ytd he still look v breathless..
see him lk tt I oso felt uncomfortable..
hais.. but there isn’t anything I can..
now I realize hw come I noe more stuff than others..
im expose to diff pp lard mi..
feel lk scoldin her.. but I cant..
damn..

realize how empty I am..
no matter how I try to fill it it wont b filled
i’m missin smth i’ll nv find..
not in this lifetime..

its getting darker n im getting more afraid..
who would hold the light for mi?

Wednesday, May 16, 2007; 11:04 AM

yo.. ppl.. or ghost?
haha..
im feelin much better than ytd..
ytd was realli down..
cos i saw lao da..
hais..
when i saw him leavin on the bus
i realli had a fear in my heart tt i might not b able to see him agn..
u noe..
its hard to noe ur fren gg to leave to a place so far away..
esp gg for nearly a yr..
on smth tt float on the sea..
wad worst? he pat my head..
aggr.. shitter..
giv mi the feelin of a blood related brother..
kao..
made mi felt worst than ever..
but wad to do..

im gg to lose another fren to the sea..
adam..
leaving soon too..
another one whose always keeping mi occupied on fri nite..
hais..

ytd nite..
mama told mi not to get a seagg husband..
...
she's thinkin too much..
but quite true..
i'm someone who nid to much love..
hate it but true.. =)
><

gt to get back to wrk..
c ya!

no matter how much u wish to rmb someone..

time will take ur memories away..

Monday, May 14, 2007; 4:25 PM

Hmm.. haven been bloggin this few days..
Bz.. or let sae lazy..
actually is my com at hm cant read the bloggy format..
that’s y..
haiz

received a bad news today..
lao da gg sailing le..
see la.. one more gg le..
nth I can do..
other than pray hard man..
wan all of them to come back safely..
I lk the sea..
and I don wan to hate it due to a fren lost..
I noe I sound exaggerating.
but im not.. I mean it..

ppl ard really getting more sick..
in the office u can hear *cough cough cough*
haha.. my fren here oso..
tsk tsk…
im still alive but got sore throat..
hee..

ytd..
mothers day.. woke up at 8!
went to mac buy cappuccino(mum’s fav)
den I start cookin breakfast..
too engross w the egg n didn’t realize that the kitchen is filled w smoke..
haha..
luckily didn’t catch any fire..
tis show any guys lookin for a hse wife pls skip mi..
haha..

recently..
got someone sms some good wishes sms but refuse to tell mi who..
n if tt person is reading tis..
im gg to tell this person if u r not identifyin urself im not gg to reply..
I didn’t reply any vulgarities(which I norm do..)
cos the no. seems familiar..

hmmm..
I gg to bz le.. next fri..
Company’s dinner..
still haven decide to go or not.. the wk aft next daryl’s bday..
still thinking whether to celeb w him or not..

im being v disturb w tots this few days..
donno wad the hell I did..
shud have keep my mouth shut..
n now.. im trapped..
confuse..
grr..
forget it..
wish him all the best.. =)

will stop here..
hope lao da and dns de all the best..
n hopefully walter is free to entertain mi during his hol..
haha..
buaiz..

Monday, May 07, 2007; 11:41 AM

Yo..
havin Monday blues le..
was LATE today..
ZZ… must b due to the late night..
played my hp game till 2 plus..
I know crazy..
but I cant slp..

been thinking too much…

sat!!
sab’s bday celeb..
had fun..
tho it isn’t as high we tot of..
but its sufficient for mi..
a few frens day out..
idealistic.. =)
i got into some trouble agn..
hee..
accidentally de..
a little giddy..(alcoholic.. ><)
whisky, rum, vodka.. taste the same to mi..
haha..
except beer..
really bitter..

sun..
was actually quite enjoyable..
had swensen on dad’s expense..
shop for my mum’s stuff..
but all was destroyed by tt old man..
damn..
its not I don lk to see him or wad..
I cant take it..
in fact ive been avoidin walkin GV unless I need to..
or at least till I wanna watch finish my compp..
aft seein him..
all the memories of wad I tot I forgotten came back..
hit me hard..
hais..
wadeva… I’ll get over it l8r eventually..
mayb another few day of slpless night only..

its gg to b alright =)

Saturday, May 05, 2007; 10:10 AM

ok
since my entry ytd..
i officially announce my life..
one word to describe it..
SUX..
two words
SUX TOTALLY!

that's all..

Friday, May 04, 2007; 12:41 PM

hmm…
was deciding whether to blog or not..
but..
look lk I cant ctrl myself.. haha..

update on ytd..
went lunchy with my class mate..
yep lunch..
with cliff n xinni..
haha.. long time didn’t see anione frm our class le

the feelin of bloggin has been spoilt.
stupid guy.. why do he always have to provoke mi..
cant he jus leave mi alone..
does it kill to forget all abt mi?
Shitter..

heck la.. go le..

wadeva u sae will not change the fact.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007; 10:27 PM

happy labour day!!

haha its pub hol..

so happy.. tho i didnt manage to enjoy..

im happy enuf not to work..

guess im really fussy..

as an eater, a social creature, n a work holic..

choose wad i really like den do it de..

bad habit..

woa! lady luck hates mi sia..

have been frens w bad luck..

lost some money tdy..

donno wad happen but i jus lost it..

hais..

i better b careful..

saw something tt brighten my day a little..

my ex got a gal.. phew~

donno why im happy..

but im really glad our past doesnt affect him=)

knew tt findin a gal wont b difficult..

he's so nice..

haha..

events for the week..

nth much..

only thing i look fwd to is sat!

gg for sab's dinner..(she's not gettin married la)

aniwae.. wanna tell fab..(if u're here even good)

donnid help mi ask HY le..

i decided not to go back animore..

i'll find a new jobbie aft this attachment..

wad suit mi in the past might not suits mi now..

actualli i feel lk returnin the 'stuff' back to the owner

in the sense 'mark' the ending..

its hard to b the one i use to b..

shall bid adieu here..

forgive n forget mi