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Thursday, May 29, 2008; 3:56 PM

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this is my 3rd blog entry today.

i cant help it.

wanna explode le.

if i don vent it somewhr..

i'll kill myself.

3 issues im pissed!

1st.

my imaginary fren. (learnt frm wen. it helps at times)

ahh~

tis guy.

i cant stand him le.

sae we are brothers.

bro ur head.

whenever u see gals. u totally forgot our existence.

wtf is tt?

jus bcos u gt some status and lots of back up den big deal?

i hope u reflect urself.

look carefully at wad are u doin.

don wanna shoot u.

been controllin myself le.

if one day i shoot u.

don blame mi.

it will be due to the reason that i cant stand u anymore.

2nd issue.

u bugger.

always cause mi to get scoldin.

can u growup?

anythin u do im always the one who suffer ur doin.

u shd noe our family.

damn suffocating.

i don deny i lied many times to get out of trouble.

but look at urself.

how old are u only?

u r alrdy getting the freedom tt i nv had.

and yet u r still not satisfied.

i really donno wad to sae le.

3rd issue.

come on la.

she's ur daughter.

try talkin to her urself.

as a mother u cant deal with her how am i suppose to do?

she wont even listen.

i realli donno wad to sae.

phobia to hav kids lookin at the society now.

one more thing.

i enjoy helpin ppl

doesnt mean ppl can take advantage of mi.

i noe wad is happenin.

sometimes i jus don wanna be mean..

but.

ppl pls do not go overboard.

tt's all i can sae.

carine

i love tis pict.
except.
danial behind. =.=
another pict of sisters.
but as usual missing one more =.=

i jus came back frm wrk.

the 'batteries' are all used up.

went to sch tdy.

but i miss practically every lesson.

skip GEMS

not my first tym. but i jus don feel lk gg..

reason being.

i haven finish my assign =X

hee.

went to lavender to buy plane stuff..

actualli i was stonin all the way.

due to the late night assign.

donno wad im doin oso.

tt y some joke glen n alex made i hav no expression.

shh..

don tell them.

hahas.

back in sch.

my first modellin session.

damn sad.

realise i donno how to make one.

i nid a crash course by glen or alex!

eh.. i mean it.

but am i able to build one in 2 wks?

3rd wk is for muggin.

went to wrk.

got lots of stuff.

i gt sth to apologise.

i didnt mean to let custome out for the last show.

but apparently the timing is wrong.

so shall i sae not realli my fault.

thnx andy for helpin tho.

im the only EOS for tdy.

suay kia.

=.=

carine

Tuesday, May 27, 2008; 3:09 PM

currently in class.
fell aslp n finally decide to wake up.
sni is back.
attcked my nose.
makin mi feel so uncomfortable.
n cold.
(shd hav bought my jacket along)

dere will be dinner tonight.
not by ah ma or mother..
but by sister(male de)
so excited..
i wonder how the rice wld b..
like porridge?
LOL

as i was surfin the web jus now..
i realise tis pict..
haha..

an old pict frm frenster.
taken frm yr 1..
made mi wonder how long haven i been updating my account.
hahas.. ^^
will update it w camp pict i hope. =D

carine

Monday, May 26, 2008; 11:16 PM

ppl..

pls ignore the prev post..

don wanna answer more qns abt it.

im jus being emo..

pre monday saddness(PMS)..

hee.

more upcoming events comin up.

im totally not excited abt holiday.

tho i can take the chance to catch up on my slp

cheers ppl.

lots of things had happen.

everyone is strugglin to live more happily.

cant wait to see boon n lun soon~

hahas..

haven seen kai ard too.

siann

tmr gg to stay in sch do my assign.

im determined to finish it by tmr.

partly i hav no choice. wed submission.

k la. gt to slp le.

nyte n swt dreams~

carine

sometym..

i jus donno wad i wan.

a short post for tdy.

i jus got into a shyt for doin wrong things agn.

promised not to get involve in anyone's life.

yet agn.

i made a grave mistake.

i hate to interfere.

but. i encounter too much of tis to turn a blind eyes to it.

oh well.

shall keep to my promise tmr.

n not break it.

let other rule their own life.

n i jus hav to stand by them givin them moral support.

cheers.

carine

oh ya. i love my blogskin!

Saturday, May 24, 2008; 4:26 PM

im back frm camp.

fri was hectic.

went to see doc aft lesson.

doc sae i got fungi infection.

damn.

suay.

howeva.. i still went for our first prep camp =)

generally camp was fun.

get to noe the rest of yr 2 n 3s better.

tho night walk is disaster.

i manage to find fun while doin it.

noe these guys glendon n alex better.

alex n i chatted while waitin for our turn for night walk.

need to thnx ah boy for acc mi while i wait alone for night walk.

hee.

barely had enuf slp aft night walk.

1/2 hr only.

godds..

torturing.

cos accompany sab to clementi for breakfast ma.

left at 9plus w ryan dan. for bball.

was good.

but..

i gt 3 bumps on my head.

damn.

the first one was realli hurtin!

cried over the pain.

not blamin vic tho..

told ah boy abt the guy i had a crush on.

god.

he opposed.

due to some reason which im not gg to sae!

but then agn..

a crush wont hurt.

good luck for next wk actual camp!

hee.

carine

Friday, May 23, 2008; 3:11 AM

i wanna thnx 4 jie for helpin.

im realli tired.

but i wanna sae.

i love my life now.

cos i don hav tym to think.

altho glen remind mi of the past.

i barely had tym to think abt it.

hope the memories will fade as time passes.

wish him all the best.

n i nv regret sayin yes to him

mayb i nid to store red bull at home

carine

Tuesday, May 20, 2008; 10:49 PM

hee..

today is a bad day.

in the mornin..

woke up at 8.05 thinkin since im late might as well skip the lesson

n slp aother hour.

however!

i overslept agn.

9.35..

nuts rush to sch.

late for an hr.

how pathetic.

long day w lesson.

had ramily burger for lunch.

nice.

yum yum..

went to club aft class..

stayed dere to finish my rosli's assign

den start my eti assign =)

in between accompany glendon for his meal

while havin ice kacang.

YUM!

he told mi his past.

interestin =)

can see he still likes her lots..

mm..

saded.

anyway.

when we went back..

we had fun makin fun of weiyao!

hahas..

see his face..

damn farny~

kakaka...

anyway i stayed in sch till 8!

woots firstt tym.

not considering FO camp and choir. =)

shocked to noe tt deres so many ppl ard in sch tt late..

hmm.

well well..

im suppose to find a gal for my ah boy.

so the criteria is..

17 and below?

female.

enjoy games?

able to listen to his mumble?

someone lookin for lots of love?

hahas..

tis is a joke.

but if dere's a gal realli existin..

pls inform mi. =)

carine

im realli tired.

Monday, May 19, 2008; 8:55 PM

a fast one before do assign.

sad to sa tmr rosli's had to hand in tmr.

if inot i shd b ready to go out for 'made of honor'

hais.

saded.

oh well.

who ask mi haven finish.

LOL.

anyway

tdy's good.

we had lots of fun workin.

or mi only?

donno leh..

when its bz its v bz.

if not its good.

holiday's comin n exams too.

date due for fyp is nearin too.

hais.

can tym slow down a little?

everyday passed too fast!

i'm barely breathin.

i still wanna play.

kai's blog is gg well..

i guess.. ppls' been dere too..

i wonder how simon noe??

oh well..

we'll find out soon.

back to proj!

carine

Sunday, May 18, 2008; 11:00 PM

frankly speakin..

im a little nauseous frm doin blog.

my headache came agn..

oh well..

puttin tt aside im quite happy how the blog went.

its still a little haywire.

however.

the blog is ready for bloggin,

for viewing,

for enjoyin.

music's good,

last but not least taggin.

proudly present..

kai's blog.!

haha.

can jus take a look n if gt anythin to advice tag at his blog.

not here pls..

don wan m blog filled w html advices.

hahaha.

really gt to start my ettiquette homewrk.

1.5k wrds

*faint*

buaiz..

carine

Saturday, May 17, 2008; 3:46 PM

ooo..

i love to go to mei jie's blog for song.

hee.

eh..

bball tdy.

little ppl..

yet fun.

geoff joined us for less than 15mins.

hahas.

im still v tired.

later floor mid.

zzz..

i wanna thank my dear neighbour ben for buyin mi lunch

haha.

lazy to cook or go takeaway

so.. asked him to help mi take away.

all i hav to do is open the door to collect the food.

hee..

im so blessed.

tho he drink my 'poisonous' coke

wahahaha..

luckily its coke or else no drinks for mi le.

oh ya.

ytd was a fruitful day.

aft lesson rush to drivin..

went well..

den i went to JE to replace my ezlink card..

hais.

aft tt..

went to meet walter n lia at PS.

walked ard orchard area n had fish n co. with eric

then..

boon called sayin he knock off

thus we went to meet the guys at bugis.

met up with mon kai n sharon

n drove us back to town -.-''

anyway.

had tau huey.

NICE~

haha.

lastly we went home =)

tired till the extend for not updatin my blog

hee..

carine

Friday, May 16, 2008; 1:49 AM

im so tired

can u believe it?

i hurt my index finger.

how dumb can i be.

think internal bleedin.

im typin now without usin the finger itself.

holy nuts..

numb numb..

zzz.

briefin w my dear little freshie went well..

except tt the fact i forgot kaiyi's name.

no offense..

it realli slip out of my mind.

hee.

CB went well.. new gal's not bad.

can enter the cafe page to see my post. =)

k laz.

im tired. nyte.

carine

meetin walty tmr!

hahas..

its been yrs since i saw him =)

Thursday, May 15, 2008; 1:13 AM

as tis pict suggest i realli nid a break..

totally stressed n pissed by life.

sth to happy abt.

tdy candy bar went well..

tho a little mood swing n fone for club keep ringin..

we still manage to hav a little lauf..

n enjoy ourself while wrkin hard.

tmr candy bar agn..

before tt..

hav to brief to my dear freshie..

god..

den hav to rush to work.

mornin nid to reach at 930

pray hard i can wake up tmr..

hee.

godS~~~

u noe wad!!

tis mth sms cfm BURST..

hahas..

saded.. i jus cant control my finger.

hahas..

still reply to minghui..

hahas.

wad to do?

hee.

k la.. gtg..

carine

Tuesday, May 13, 2008; 8:34 PM

meantime

while waitin for my food to digest a little befor showering..

im here to make a wish list~

most wanted stuff

1. a car license

2. a bike license

3. a digital watch (baby G! or casio is good)

4. a jacket! (brown! with hood) LOL

5. a bag

6. mascara

7. eye liner

8. sneakers~

9. ben n jerry cone frm simon!

10. a meal frm boon~ =x

11. a bf with no prob attached (impossible) =P

rine

im ok.

realli ok.

long eh.. pls la..

jus step on acc itself

u get ready to fail immediately.

cfm will roll back de.

carine

Monday, May 12, 2008; 11:50 PM

i hate being lie at.

oh well..

mayb i so not trustworthy.

forget it.

tym for bed.

carine

Sunday, May 11, 2008; 3:36 AM

hmm...

tdy closing is hmm hmm..

ok actualli.. late by less than an hr..

so i guess its ok ba..

thnx for lie's and grandson's(vic) help.

oh well..

look lk i owe lot of ppl greetins..

hahas..

HAPPY BDAY to SERENE

and not forgettin..

HAPPY BELATED BDAY to WANYEE.

yeaps..

lessie was realli nice to do it for serene..

stupid geoffery came out w a stupid nick for mi n serene

florene..

zzzz

cos we were doin floor on fri tgt..

-.-''

oh ya.. not forgettin my mama..

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! ><

hee.. gtg..

lots to do..

carine

Saturday, May 10, 2008; 1:22 PM

heyyy peeps..
in this early mornin..
i don wanna giv a damn to the outin of a bday gal le..
b cos of her..
ppl hav been playin w my mood..
in a min sae yes den sae no.
im refer to the MR. R.
damn him..
like very fun to play lk tt.
oh well.. wad damages can he do le..
PS-ed 3 times in a row.
damned.

i've done wad i cld for her..
if she thinks of anything i can nth too..
tried my best le..
but wad i got in the amist of my slp..
sry i cant make it cos of tis n tt..
ok.. fine..
my worst organised outing ever.
god man..
how worst can it get.

wed tekong cancelled.
nuts nuts i got tym to go club activity le.. =D
mayb jio didi for movie oso.. IRON man..
hahas...
i m so back dated..
by now ppl shd hav watch lots of tym le ba..
(ps. esp uncle jenny)
i wanna watch wad happen in vegas too..
wanna watch w ah boy.. cos gt ppl to lauf w..
^ ^
i think made of honor is good too..
tho not as good as vegas ba..

tt's all for tdy..
l8r candy bar..
i'll prove tt tmr closin wont b till 5am!
damn tt guy!

carine

Thursday, May 08, 2008; 7:41 PM

grrrrr..

im so fed up la..

i've lost my purse tdy..

yeaps..

sth tt contain money not ic..

n ezlink card..

so total missin cost is close to 60?

nuts nuts..

plus sentimental..

tt's wad i bought w ah dai.

ahhh!

saded..

wad happennnnnn!!!

nvm.

im so doom

so doom..

nid to realli

cut cost..

not gg into the extreme but realli hav to save..

everything is risin.

hais.

except my pay. =.=

btw.

congrats to er zi for passin ur basic theory.

actualli hav to thnx wl..

cos i lend him the theory book =X

hope he don mind.

im kinda fed up w GV le..

ppl im gg to wrk w everyday is so not frm my gang de..

not tt i realli mind..

but imagine work without any ppl who has a common lauf lk u..

hais..

oh well..

i wonder tmr ten ten free to catch midnight w mi..

hmm..

carine

woa

haven been updating my blog le.

feel lk dyin tis few days..

don hav enuf slp at all..

somemore fri gt drivin in the mornin...

yea.. u heard it.. in the mornin..

at 7am..

feel lk scoldin the instructor..

but he sure gt reason de..

hais..

went shoppin w boon jus now..

was a bad experience..

hope he don read tis..

haha..

actualli not tt bad la..

rarely u can find a guy who wld walk into the shop filled w girls stuff w u..

so.. i guess he's good in tt sense.

otherwise in makin decision..

he's bad at it..

lets put it nicely.

tdy drivin went well..

nth much to talk abt except i accidentally knock over someone agn

avi thingy gettin better..

however..

nid mi to call..

i wanna i can make it or not..

nid to call abt 20 ppl...

holy nuts..

im so poor u noe..

money money issues..

im broke..

didnt realli enjoy much..

hav to spend more wisely le..

money strategies!!!

a small talk abt wad ur dream guy wld be.

-avg lookin

-someone u can lean on

-someone who look into ur eyes n not lie

-kind heart

-know wad to do at the right tym

-sensitivity level 7

-always dere to hear u grumble!

hahas.. tt's all for now.. =)

carine

Sunday, May 04, 2008; 9:29 PM

oh well..

feel so down.

felt so...

outcasted?

hais..

mayb ryan's right.

i shdnt hav done so much.

anyway im back to my original plan to wrk on saturdae instead of attendin.

mayb some might sae i 'keh gao'.

but i jus don lk the feelin of lk gt used of.

hee..

anyway i wasnt realli free de.

how i wish i can go slp now.

nights ppl.

carine

Friday, May 02, 2008; 1:40 AM

Happy belated Labor Day.

god! i wanna complain!

these few days are damn tiring~

god..

even with HL on 30 apr

it didnt make the job good.

cos deres a power failure.

shall i explain the prob to all..

its does not lies w the GV back stage guys.

in fact its the fault of the JP mgt.

n guess wad.. we r the ones tt gt scolded

#%$^&@

nvm.

tolerate.

end up some of our ppl mood gt spoiled.

i broke a personal record tho.

spend 4 mins for hall 4 full hse.

i was mad.

runnin ard to clear the hall

so to help LK who was facin customer outside.

but at the end of the day my last hall,

my legs and hands trembled.

guess i overwrked them.

tdy CB was tirin as well..

many ppl bought lots of things

as if deres no increase of GST, prices, etc etc.

thnx ppl who stayed to helped.

tmr CB agn.

don feel lk gg to wrk

sian.

carine