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Monday, February 26, 2007; 7:01 PM

hi ppl~~

sorry.. tot so long before i update my blog..

this entry is specially dedicated to all my GV colleague..

here it goes..

weilong

:a bro i refuses to recog..

:a guy whose v nice to mi..

:always givin in to mi..

:someone who bear grudges

:consistently tryin to change..

:the dudu who ignore my scoldin

:lamer

:take everything too seriously

:mood swing.

kwang wee

-a v brotherly figure.

-someone difficult to forget.

-someone whose v quiet in the presence of others

-but really can talk if u're frens

-lamer!

-know lots of things which he keep inside..lol

-refuses to disclose stuff abt himself

-good at keepin secrets..

Kenneth

+someone i realli enjoy workin with

+a v playful old boy.. hee..

+rmb grudges

+but wld help u when u nid it..

+can b quite strict at times(tt's y fab scared of him)

+a chubby guy..

+someone i nv fail to step on his tail..

Ryan

=a gd fren to entertain u..

=talkative

=gossipy

=goofy at times

=cnnt keep secrets well enuf

=good at consolin ppl

=a worthy fren

=worst lamer in gv..

fabian

*cheerful fella

*full or vulgarities

*gives good advices at times

*typical ah beng.. bleah

*v good in dealin w gals

*someone w dreams

kaibin

#come n go v fast

#always mind his own biz

#chatterbox

#v good w people

#someone u can look for for supper

#thick skinned.. hee

BoonLeong

..my neighbour..hee

..someone u can crap with

..guy w his own tots..

..mr. nice

..bad at expressin himself

Honglie

_another brotherly figure.

_someone u can share things with

_hold grudges

_silent killer

_cannot trust his wrd totally..

Huimin

^a v sister fig.

^look strict at times yet v kind

^someone who's smile nv fail to made my day..

^quite ez to communicate with

^sensible

^always stand up for those who got bullied..

Valerie

)v cheerful gal

)influence ppl easily n get influence easily

)someone who u can talk to easily..

)pleasant

)talkative

)theres lots more to learn..

Mengting

(ms nice

(quite zhuai

( and serious at times

(someone u can joke with

(n v unique hee..

yimon

>someone i really can talk to..

>cheerful

>fun lovin

>care abt frens

>cherish frenship

wendy

rachel

/ms pretty in GV! woo!

/i enjoyed her company

/v swt person as well

/n easy to talk to..

tt's all for now folk.. realli not enuf time to finish all..

i wish u all the best.. n hope n see ya soon..

would like to thank bel n HY for all the guidances altho scoldin n naggin r unavoidable..

n of cos jay for helpin mi here n there..

hee..

departure is part of life..

smtym its part of growin up..

Friday, February 23, 2007; 3:20 AM

i feel my life is like a storm..

and im a ship in the storm

a ship which has lost evrything..

includin the captain..

to put it simply..

i lost my direction..

includin the engine inside mi is failin mi..

i finally break the news to someone i really hesitate abt tellin..

mayb i took so long bcos i care..

tt's wad fab sae..

i, myself really donno..

i was kinda surprise tt he noe..

someone told him? or he jus knew it?

i really wanna ask..

but somthin inside mi stopped mi..

aft all he sae.. my rain came back..

i donno wad's happenin the tears are keepin on flowin..

told myself cos the video i've been watchin..

is it?

i completely have no idea..

mayb i jus cant bear to leave..

everything jus seems to b so complete..

i have to admit.. it fulfilled my life..

it really did..

enjoy every moment i have n had..

however, i noe..

its comin to an end..

will nv forget

everyone i meet n work with..

everythin i did..

everytime im late..

evry time i got lecutured

and things i learn..

-tolerance

-findin joy when u bz

-sharin

-openin ur inner self

-care n concern..

this will nv b dere once i leave..

they will only relive in my memories..

but i'll always keep it close to my heart..

later flr.. eos..

hopefully nth bad will happen..

i really think i owe u an apology..

as for the date.. i'll not forget abt it..

Thursday, February 22, 2007; 2:29 AM

yo~

sry babes n dudes..

been to m'sia tis new yr..

thus.. im wishin everyone a belated

Chinese new yr!

hee..

hmm.. didnt enjoy my stay at there..

cos most of the time i slp my time away..

cant help... i jus cant control the tirednesss..

spend a bomb on wear..

my mum oso seh.. haha..

i donno y.. but i jus grab.. haa..

the day aft i came back..

went to my ma's frens' hse..

collect red packet.. haa..

actually.. its like watchin video..

"the battle of wits"

hee.. not bad..

tdy.. lots of activities..

morn.. got dragged up to pray to 'tai sui'

den breakfast hee..

go ah yi ah ma hse..

an old lady tt im quite fond of..

took care of mi fer a period when im young..

bleah xP

aft tt.. went to work.. hee.. candy bar.. bz day...

tot morn shud b ok.. turn out ironically..

but okok la.. only a slight headache..

wen hm.. bathe had a 'lao yu sheng' meetup w the neighbours..

aft tt rush to GV for movie..

watched ghost rider.. really good

strongly recommended..

hee... here's my fav part.. strollin hm..

haha.. we(kw n ryan) walked to the place whr its possible tt we can part..

haa.. ended up walkin ryan to bus stop n kw walked mi hm..

chatted a lot.. abt the future..

abt sch.. n ryan movin hse..

haha.. but its really enjoyable w the breeze..

yep tt's all.. hee..

night!!(morn?!)

im really afraid of sayin it..

i wanna ask for forgiveness..

conflicts hopefully can stop..

Wednesday, February 14, 2007; 2:17 AM

happy valentine day to all..

hope everyone will b happy..

cos im not..

tt y since im not happy..

i hope ppl out there are happy..

haven cried for a long time..

really reflect wad i have been doin..

rmbed last yr at tis time im talkin to 'him'

n on 15 he asked mi..

but who knows..

i asked for a break up a mth l8r..

hmm.. life's really unpredictable..

but i think this is not the main reason i cried..

the main reason is..

im hungry.. but i cant think of anyone to go supper with..

hais.. saddistic.. but who's free at 2 plus in the morn to go for supper..

hee.. stupid..

tmr donno my plan will work or not..

jus realised tt my parents r damn strict..

i feel like im still 15 16 lidat.. hais..

overprotective..

suffocatin..

but really hope to have supper w the gang..

will it work.. is still a question mark.. hais..

k la.. i go le.. enjoy urselves ppl..

workin at 11 but helpin kenneth to do CB openin..

i hate the reality..

i wld rather choose to live in dreams..

Tuesday, February 13, 2007; 2:05 PM

zzz~~

quite dead tis few days..

but donno lehh..

i realised that i have been chattin lots this few days..

evidence 1: sat night

talk lots durin supper w gv gang..

next tok to kb at lobby..

den kw call to talk agn(sent mi on mission)

finally.. talk to ryan (on mission)

till v late.. time.. not gg to reveal..

evidence 2: mon night

intend to do my letter..

ended up on9 talkin to mingyi..

hmm.. adult to adult talk..

damn cool n interestin..

talk to andersen..

heart to heart talk..

not interestin..

quite fed up cos i donno wad to sae..

talked to kb agn..

a talk on gossip..

not good at all..

he's angry..

er yea.. so many things in one dae..

hais..

yea~~ valentine in 1 day..

workin on tt dae cos got date..

but hopefully they release mi earlier so i can go out on a date..

with a fren..

ppl.. is fren.. not bf.. hee..

thinkin of smth for my sisters..

valentine pressie?? haha..

wonderin how they doin le..

i always believe love made the world go round

and i still do..

Saturday, February 10, 2007; 2:34 PM

nth much is happenin in this few days..

jus work home slp n eat..

like living dead..

i jus rejected the opportunity to go on a sailing ship..

very reluctant..

but i guess i have too mani commitment to fulfill before my itp start..

yea.. den no choice..

especially once i promise yvonne i'll acc her b4 she leave for shanghai..

hee.. n my work oso.. full committment..

i did smth tt i hope i wont get any shootin..

cos i didnt told them abt it..

hopefully they don blame mi..

i don wan too much commotion abt it..

tho i leak out this to some..

but i believe they wont spread it out.. ^ ^

all the best to those still havin exams..

n those who jus got their result..

don get unhappy w the result..

take it.. cos this is only the beginnin..

move on w it n u'll be happier..

yepyep.. thats all..

4 more days to valentine!! hee..

departure doesnt mean frenship no longer exist..

its jus a challenge to how tough ur frenship can get..

Friday, February 09, 2007; 3:28 PM

here r the update for ytd

hee..

went to meet my old buds ytd..

n to celeb my damn good fren bday..

haha..

went to imm.. ok.. v ordinary place..

but.. we had fun man.. so cool..

i feel like mi agn.. talkative n irritatin..

had our neoprints(as usual)

n dinner.. starve until i no energy to talk crap..

yea! den finally.. time for home.. cant part man..

oh ya.. when at entertainment ctr guess who i saw?

kwang wee..

haha.. haolian to mi abt exam over altho mine long ago over le..

den i saw my ex on the train agn.. dots..

scary as usual.. hais

yep.. thats all.. o lvl finally out.. wonder how well they did..

gee lots of junior sia.. haha..

k la gtg.. lots of hsewrk..

maria~

bleah.. X)

i don wish for eterntiy

as long as there is once we share the times tgt..

Thursday, February 08, 2007; 1:49 PM

wee~~

met my sisters ytd at the briefin.

so happy..

even thou w lots of works to b done durin this break before itp really start..

hais..

to make things worst..

i saw him..

aggr... i cant take it..

he's jus always there..

no matter how much i tried to forget..

once i saw him on9 or in person

everything will come hittin back at me..

its hard but i tried..

hopefully, this 6 mths will help a lot..

but deep in my heart theres smth tt realli don wan mi to forget him..

how?

i donno.

nvm.. hopefully time will cure everything..

tis is my only solution..

too mani things i nid to settle le..

thanks wen jie jie for the present..

my first valentine present..

haha..

wonder wad my mei will get for her valentine..

hee..

hope my xue jie jie will get her sunflower..

haaz..

yep tt's all for tdy..

and..

HAPPY BDAE YANQING!!!

bleah..

no matter how difficult life is..

we must learn how to conqueor n live w it..

Wednesday, February 07, 2007; 11:30 AM

yo.. don wanna update my blog initially..

but decided to do so aft readin smth tt pissed mi off..

to be frank.. it totally pissed mi..

for one thing i always love..

treat everyone as real fren

tho might not b close

but frens u trust u can at least talk to..

but this guy.. i really donno whether how i should treat him

ignore him?

he really make mi doubt his sincerity as a fren..

i hate the feelin..

if he cant forget it den y talk to mi for..

if he still blame mi for wad happen,

can jus talk to mi abt it

y do he nid to turn in circles..

makin mi feel he has forgot abt it..

i really am confuse now..

which the hatred for him has formed i cant control myself..

im really afraid tt i'll lose control of myself n piss him off

like wad i did to the others whom i refuse to acknowledge..

i really donno..

gg to meet my sisters l8r n tt's keepin my feelin balance.. otherwise im bursting..

Sunday, February 04, 2007; 10:23 PM

deepression..

oh.. damn..

my fellow frens like feelin worst ever since the hol. start..

donno how r they le.. cos hol didnt get to see them at alh.. damn worryin lorr.. hais..

prayin real hard for them now.. sob..

their blog. pathetic. all like cryin for help.

or the sound of exasperation..

i donno how to lend them a hand... im like living in my own world agn..

jus felt agitated over little stuff.. cant help it..

totally lost contact w the wrld...

how i wish smth can b done..

wishin someone to lend mi a hand..

so i can stand up agn..

so i can help the rest to stand too..

realised i also lost the 'me' who can console n listen to the rest..

gettin reallly restless..

my old pals don seems to b free too.. mayb i shldnt interfer w their lives..

leave them alone..

find something for yq n end it w a full stop..

hmm.. seems simple n good..

mayb i shld put evrything in its simplest form.. so i can be happier..

yea.. leave everything behind n move fwd.. tt might b the best solution..

valentine's comin.. and i don intend to have any date..

plannin to spend my day away at hm readin my time away..

which sound real good.. cos haven read for a long time.. ^ ^

but really.. if anione of ya out there who read tis..

tell mi wad's happenin to u..

so i can help u..

in every life there are boundaries which u cant avoid..

Friday, February 02, 2007; 2:43 AM

-ordinary dae-

another day has slipped away.. waa.. my hol leh... one mth only... can slower or not.. sian 1/2 lor..

spend my dae at candy bar tdy.. worked closin w suan hwee.. wth lorr.. two gals lehh.. y they so heartless.. but luckily my angels came to help.. haha.. they are.. menting steven n the 'mega one' fabian.. lol.. reali appreciated it... altho fabian kena spam by me.. haa even on9.. bleah..

mengting n steven v er xin.. one is ting ting mei mei another one is steve... when i went out suddenly steven sae kawaii i was.. 'seh' so act cute.. haha.. sshhhh.. bleah=P

watched hanakimi le.. so happy.. quan still as shuai as eva!! lol.. how shuai can a guy gets.. hais.. such a sweet guy.. cant wait for the next epi.. even more hiong.. wee~~ bleah XP..

jus now fabian share a webbie w us.. smth to do with tarots.. quite true i think.. so.. im gg to share...http://www.flarn.com/~warlock/tarot/

hee.. v nice.. mine is the wheel of fortune.. http://www.flarn.com/~warlock/tarot/fantastical/10.html

but the one i like most is

http://www.flarn.com/~warlock/tarot/winged/1.html

haa.. i like the card itself not the description..

hee.. zzz.. think i go slp le la.. suddnely tot of my attachment.. wonder will my company change?? how i wish it wud.. MPA leh.. sob.. but hais.. hais.. hee.. ki siao in the morn... must b ryan who pass it on to mi.. damn.. bleah..

things r nv the way u wan it to b..

thus, u either got a option to do smth or nth abt it..